Loosing my son through suicide

Can somebody else go who identified him

Yea his nanna has done it

Ok if somone close can go and see him that will be good for u in the long run I didnā€™t but his dad and partner did

What area do you live in

Are yiu glad you didnā€™t see him?

Yes because I knew his dad saw him somone had too

Yes his dad is going tomorrow. Iā€™ve asked for picture of him so I can keep it in a sealed envelope until Iā€™m ready. Iā€™m bury area

How old was your son

24

Take every minute and hr as it comes

Aw Alison you poor poor thing.my heart simply aches for you.how old was your son when this terrible mental health disease finally got the better of himā€¦how dose someone cope with suicide death I ask myself often.my precious child died 15 years ago.but not suicide .undescrible pain the loss of a child.no matter where you are or whom your with itā€™s in your head memories of that most undescrible day in your life,well thatā€™s whatā€™s it like for me.i now suffer very complexed mental health issues.when you hear of suicide .times otheres are quick with unwanted remarks.i believe you loose insight of those you love.please talk to me any time I am always here for youā€¦nomatter how we loose our child the fact is we now have to learn to live without there presence day by day.hang on in there.i am not that much of a role model.but 15 years later I am still here .not really living but existing .xx

Yeah Iā€™ve realised that today. I donā€™t want to accept it

What area do u live

Bury

I truly get it.from one mums heart to another.thetes no words I have that will help your pain or ease it.i know I get it 100% for 15 years I donā€™t or canā€™t explain how iv survived it .it starts the day we loose our child ā€¦and ends the day we join him or her.i think thatā€™s the thing for me hoping and trying to believe we will meet again somewhere heaven they call it.well I pray to god there really is heaven.i am catholic and canā€™t but question .yet in church my faith is there in front of my eyes.i understand mental health and the devastation it can have on ones life and thoughtsā€¦ x

It seems we live miles apartā€¦yet I feel I know you.be as strong as you can be I am not much support I know.but I am here for you .i can tell you on how my mental health affects my daily life and challengesā€¦and how within seconds you can loose trail of your thoughts like blank mind .you can act on impulse .never intentionally wanting to leave your loved ones.xxx

I just feel pain

Of course you do and will do ā€¦itā€™s your child and itā€™s not fairā€¦have you considered specialist child bereavement councillors.i had them on and of for yearsā€¦I took 2year breakā€¦but starting back again in Marchā€¦they canā€™t change the past .but itā€™s a place to express truly your most secretive inner feelings without judgement.please stay in touch ā€¦I am a mother so I do get it .xxx

Please seek support from your doctor to help you through the oncoming months/yearsā€¦this is too painful to bear without getting all the support you can get.
Carol x

I agree with carol just far to awful to deal with by yourself.it 15 years since my child was tragically taken from me .my life is destroyed it infact revolves around helpline numbers doctors mental health workers.it what gets me through each day.i tried by myself just laying in my boys bedroom day in day out.it was and is worse than torture.i had many years of specialist councilling.nothing removes this pain.but we must find a way to deal with it.i am still searching.so once again I am of to child specialist councilling .to be honest I donā€™t know what I expect them to do .but pkease pkease go and ask for help .you canā€™t do this alone .let me know how things go for you I am here .one mothers heart reaching out to another .i just wish I could give you a big hug.thetes something in a hug from a parent that knows xxx