Well its that time of night when i should be feeling tired and going to bed but that is not happening as this is when my mind goes into overdrive and i cannot.get.any sleep after the day i have had you would think i would get some sleep but no i am wide awake thinking this is the time when myself and paul would go to bed and just talk and talk it was something we loved to do i miss him for that its not the same without him who i am going to talk to nobody i have no one to talk to at all oh how i miss him its so lonely here now
I have just read your post from last night I hope you managed to get some sleep and are coping better this morning. It’s a cruel and lonely place we find ourselves in.
I got a couple of hours sleep thats normal now for me its a very lonely place we are in and it just keeps getting lonier for me i miss paul so much i mis mr romance with flowers for me spoiling me , i miss the chatter we would talk about everything thats what i miss so much and my phone so quite it never rings anymore oh how i wish i had someone anyone who would ring me and just talk to me about anything i wish they had phones where they where i would be on mine all day to him like i was before .
I am glad you got some sleep, I don’t sleep very well . I go to sleep and wake up after a few hours and it takes me ages to get to sleep again . I guess that’s normal given what we are going through
I do hope you are ok?Its 11 months for me tomorrow since my dear wife passed, i wish i could say things get better but sadly i still cry every day, some days more heavily than others.I really hope things get better for us.Take care.
Hi @Babycake - sorry you’re having such a bad day today. I hope tomorrow is better for you. I’ve also been struggling today - I’ve come to bed to have a quiet cry as my sons will hear otherwise. Just missing my husband so much today. Nice to feel not so alone with this forum. Hoping tomorrow will be kinder.
I do hope you are feeling better today?This journey we are on is such a hard and difficult one that tests the very fabric of our emotonal and physchological resillience.I feel that the void left by my dear wifes absence can never be filled.Her leaving me broke my heart, tore me to pieces,my life as such ended when she passed away.I just cant imagine a future without my dear wife beside me.i know the pain will never dissapear or my worries which i have constantly now i know i have to find a way to live with this grief and pain.grief is so very hard for us and we all experience it in different ways.This site has been so helpful, everyone is so kind and understanding as we have all been through the pain and heartbreak.Grief can affect us in so many ways, i think i have experienced so many, waves of sadness,anger, confusion,and quite often feeling of being in a daze.I often feel disorientated, confused, not knowing what to do., even the simple things seem impossible.My concentration and decision making are suffering too, but today is 11 months since my dear loving wife passed and i have somehow got through this rollercoaster ride, so far anyway.Its so hard though.Having someone to talk to is so important , especially someone who understands.Sometimes people may use the phrasees like “Time Heals” or Theyre in a better place”i know they mean well but what we really want is our loved ones with us physically but i know it cannot be.Keep reaching out on here to us, everyone genuinly cares and really does know how you feel as we have all been there.Take care.
