Hi @LostLil r dont worry i totally get you i really dont want to go but i just feel i have to try im going but im just outside the airport and if i get there and totalling hate it i will just come home, but i just feel i need to try as all my life ive said id love to go on holiday on my own as Michael was so needy he was worse then both my kids so that come and truly bit be in the arse:sleepy: but i do feel i really need a rest but i just hope i will get a rest and not come home more emotionally drained then i am now 
i think we all have to do whatever we feel ready to do, so ive got just over 2 weeks to find my brave pance, but i know Michael will be coming with me to hold my hand take care xx
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@Ali29 i totally understand i know i shouldn’t but i go to bed every night hoping i dont wake up in the morning and then when i do i justvthink omg i have to do another day 
how can something that is in your head cause such a physical pain is horrendous hopfully you eventually get the strength to go on holiday again good luck and take care xx
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This made me laugh. Thank you! I do miss laughing with my Rich! It’ll get easier I’m sure.
This about sums us up!
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@Ali29 i have a photo that always jumps out at me whenever im really down and im sure its his way of saying im absolutely fine and always makes me smile xx
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That’s lovely x
Lovely photos @Ali29 & @Amanda111
Glad I could make you smile Ali.
My Richard could always make me smile with daft comments like that.
Karen xxx
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This has broken my heart 
I lost my Mom 5 years ago tomorrow, it’s a daily struggle… to loose my husband I just can’t comprehend what you are going through…I hope you can find help and strength within the group 
one thing is for sure we are all United in grief
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@KarenF Thank you Karen for the mention, the last few days I have been down its getting harder for me the longer it gets since I lost my little Sue and I wanted to help others, but how can you help anyone when you feel dead inside, at least you think of me now and again and I love the pics you put on here I bet you were happy too sorry about your loss bye hun thanks david
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