I lost my beautiful son Lee, in April 2022, he was 47. He went out of home one day and never returned. He was a big, strong, fit man and he suffered a fatel cardiac arrest, which the medical profession have put under the catagory of SADs, they have no explanation.
I have been to hell and back and it just gets worse. I feel like people do not understand me, even family, they all seem to be moving on, or are they hiding it better than me. I don’t understand why! I think about Lee every day and night, I just cannot get through this, I feel so alone. I seem to be in conflict with everyone and I just cannot contain my anger. I think they are all fed up of me. I thought I would go to my GP but I cannot easily get an appointment and just feel lost. I don’t know what to do. Help!
I’m going through the exact same the only people that really understands is other mums I lost my 18yr old son kray 15 months ago every days a struggle I’m a completely different person to who I was my doctors been great I’m about to start counselling with cruise on wed feel really anxious about it I know this is stupid but there’s a huge part of me wants to always feel this pain I fear the day that I wake up and kray not being my first thought
I am so sorry for your loss. I feel for you as I know the terrible pain you are going through. I feel so alone and I just don’t know what to do. I wish you good luck with your counselling on Wednesday, I just don’t seem to have the guts to try anything
I’m not sure counselling will be for me but I’m gony try I’m surrounded by family and friends but still feel so lonely sometimes it’s like I’m grieving for the life I had as well as my son he was only 18 massive football fan very popular he had more friends than I’ve had in my 50yrs party animal life and soul but a mummy’s boy all the same total opposite of my daughter done everything for him literally my life revolved round him we were so close he was the entertainment in our house now it’s just empty and quiet I’m in my bedroom all the time me and his dad are on the same page to a certain extent but still not the same I gave birth to him I was the one that dropped everything for him I can’t see a way of dealing with this pain the jealousy I feel seeing his pals or even mums with there sons that I don’t even know
What about your sons dad is he supporting you x
I feel your pain I really do. My son was my best friend too. His Dad is with me, but I feel he just doesn’t understand what I feel. I know he is hurting too but he handles it better than me. I just feel so alone, I just don’t know what to do anymore. I hope your counseling works for you, I just feel really nervous about it all, and truly don’t know how to handle it all.
Mt lovely son died in August. I’ve kept a diary and it’s good to write down your feelings and memories. Id give it a go , I’m onto my third and I write letters to my son about what my days are like, how I feel and how much I miss him . All the happy times we shared , I miss him and long to see him all the time but my diary feels like a connection to him x I’m just heartbroken, devastated by the loss xx
I feel your pain, it is so hard to cope. I am so sorry for your loss. I write a diary but I think writing a letter is a brilliant idea, I am going to try it. Thank you for the idea, My son passed in 2022 but the devastation is still, if not more devastating, I am just,struggling every day. Thank you.
I’ve also tried reiki had a few sessions at the beginning thinking back I wish I had waited till now they were very intense have you thought about seeing a spiritual medium I had one come to my house it gave me some comfort before loosing kray i wasn’t really into tht kind of thing but now I would try anythihg to connect with him
Yes I have had messages through a spiritual medium which were amazing. I know where Lee is now. I have also had a session with a shamanic healer and have another one booked. It seemed to make things a little clearer, they deal with cleansing your emotions, and like you I just wanted to try anything. I really want to try anything, and you have helped me more than you know, so thank you.
I think your doing great we just don’t see it ourselves it’s good to chat to other mums in the same situation about what your going through your welcome to msg me anytime
shamanic healer I need to look into that I’m open to everything I’m going to another medium at the end of the month no sure if I’m just chasing something if that makes sence xxx
Lost my son on the 27th October 2023, finding it so hard going into another new year without him. Miss him terribly, some days I feel so low that all I can do is cry.
I’m exactly the same this year seemed worse than last think maybe was still really numb and the shock was still there I tell myself that I take my day hour by hour I do what I can to get me through if that’s lying in my bed for hours days or a week at a time then so be it some days I get up and i think I’m having an ok day then it just takes one thing to trigger me and you feel like your back to square one i honestly think that this is how my life is now and as crazy as it sounds im scared of the day that I don’t cry for him xxx
I very scared for the future, I have a daughter and husband but I just don’t want to be here but can’t leave them. Everyone says I am doing so well and strong but don’t feel like it. Feel like I am in a nightmare. The grief is just so overwhelming. Xxx
Omg I feel your pain I also have a daughter and a husband and truly think of it wasn’t for them i wouldn’t be here either everybody tells me kray would hate seeing me like this and I know he would but I can’t help it it’s easier said than done I feel like we are in very similar situations please give me a private msg I would do anything for my old life back I’ve lost interest in everything I can’t stand myself I’m so miserable I don’t know why anybody else can be bothered with me when I can’t be bothered with myself xxx
I was the same , I wanted to be gone and at times still do. I’ve had a few tears today but I’m starting to cope a little bit better. Time helps I didn’t believe it would ever get easier but it is starting to x
Hello. I feel exactly like you, I understand your agony, I lost my son aged 40 in 2023. I have been frozen in hell every since, I can’t function or do anything, my house is a mess, my life has stopped, I feel so alone. I’m watching my other son deal with losing his brother by drinking alcohol every day, I feel like I just want to die and he with my late son , I have a daughter, I know I love my other 2 kids but my heart is stone , I feel so guilty about that. I don’t know how to carry on
I feel the same my youngest daughter lauren 32, passed away suddenly on the 29th November i was talking to her on the phone, she said she had chest pain, 9 minutes later she was gone heart attack, no answers from autopsy now waiting further testing in london, funerals a wk today,
Im so angry or crying but mostly angry at everyone if any one annoys me …im going crazy im sure of it i can’t cope, i really do know how you feel
party animal life and soul but a mummy’s boy all the same total opposite of my daughter done everything for him literally my life revolved round him we were so close he was the entertainment in our house now it’s just empty and quiet I’m in my bedroom all the time me and his dad are on the same page to a certain extent but still not the same I gave birth to him I was the one that dropped everything for him I can’t see a way of dealing with this pain the jealousy I feel seeing his pals or even mums with there sons that I don’t even know
im going crazy im sure of it i can’t cope, i really do know how you feel