I’m lost!!! This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I’m not sure how to carry on. You want to blame someone, anyone. This can’t be real and feels so raw and unbearable!! .
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Im so sorry for your loss, im not much for advice on what to do but just want to let you know that your not alone on here.
I do know what you are going through as I lost my soul mate of 22 years on 23rd November 2024 to cancer.
Being on here does help
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Mine was also healthy! Going to get us breakfast, walked in the house and hit the floor! Dissected Aortic Aneurysm. This is the worse pain! I’m so sorry to hear about your husband. It was a total shock as well. I tried so hard to get him back!!
Sorry, I read another post and got the two stories crossed. I do hope this does do some good. I knew I wasn’t alone but I love to hear that other people loved their husbands as much as I did!
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Its ok, i lost my husband to cancer, I only had 4 weeks with him from the diagnosis.
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I feel exactly the same, it’s been six weeks of hell, I cry constantly, I don’t want to be here without him, I love him so much, every day hurts.
I feel your pain and send my love to you xx
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So sorry for your loss.
I buried my wife last Thursday, and went to visit her today, and took some fresher flowers. I put them down and burst into tears. I spoke to her for 10 to 15 minutes, but it broke me again. I will keep going, of course, because i need to tell her how much i love and miss her.
I bought a notebook yesterday, because writing to her may make me feel a little more comforted.
It is utterly devastating to lose a partner, but i know, in time, i will be able to carry this burdon of loss better, but at the moment it hurts so much.
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Oh My!!! I’m so sorry and sad for you! Yes, it feels utterly unbearable. It makes you have a feeling of not wanting to love anyone because it hurts so bad. If it were not for my Son, I would want to die, to be honest. He may be grown but watching him hurt so bad and knowing his Father will never walk through the door is literally all I can stand. I’m struggling to find strength and peace.
I feel the exact same! Somehow someway we have to find the strength to carry on and NO, I don’t want to either. He was my first and last love. (Besides my sweet Son). I swear if it weren’t for him I would literally go crazy. I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this. I want to tell you that you’re not alone, but those words feel empty; however, I’m beside you in this. I keep telling myself, “I’m too young to be alone”, but that’s not changing anything. How in Gods name do we handle this loss?
Thank you.
I have no idea of how I will get through it, I feel like I am suffocating, it’s a hard loss to bear.
Sending my love to you xx
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I am not sure i could ever love anyone again, and, if i ever did, what would it do to me to possibly lose someone else. Could not handle this pain all over again.
I am glad you have your son. At least you can help each other through it.
I know what you mean about dying. You won’t do anything silly, but you want to gonto sleep and not wake up, i have had that feeling.
It is hard to carry on without them, but i know my wife would want me to. She was the strongest and bravest person i know. I am not so sure that i am that strong and brave, but i will try.
Good luck to you on your journey through this unbearable pain, and message if you need to.
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My Hazel died on Christmas Eve. Though she’d been ill for a few weeks, it was still unexpected.
Two months and it still hurts and i frequently burst into tears from a random thought of her.
I’ve known her 44 years and loved her for 43 of them. We were a coule for 39 years and last Friday was our 38th anniversary.
It’s going to be a long slog and I’ll never get over it. I miss her terribly.
However, with 6 children and 12 grandchildren, she’s left a wonderful legacy. I have to carry on for her memory and because i can’t let my family down
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Hi everyone I lost my darling Steve in October last year. I posted quite a bit but haven’t done so lately although still read all the time. My grief has come in waves last week I couldnt stop crying this week not as much. My kids and grandchildren keep me going. Ive started swimming every morning just to give me something to get up for. I try and keep busy but nothing will ever be the same again. My daughter annd her husband took me out for a meal last week at the local Indian but it brought back so many memories and I ended up having to come home. When will this heartache end, I was with him 52 years and my life felt over the night he passed.Sorry for rambling x
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Hi
It’s going to take time alot of time maybe years and your not rumbling you are letting it out that’s good 
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I lost Mark just after we got back from our Christmas holiday, I got up one morning to get ready for work, and he had fallen asleep forever in his chair. The shock was immense and it’s six weeks on now, but I relive that morning every day, it’s surreal, and so unexpected. It’s a daily struggle to keep alive, but I know that if there is an heaven, he will definitely be there, he was a wonderful man and the void he left is unspeakable.
I send you my love xx
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Hi Hammond03, I feel for you as everyone on this platform does, we all apppear to be in the same horrendous situation. Your post rang a bell with me as I lost my soulmate 7 months ago and it still hurts as much as the day it happened. We married when I was 19 and we had 50 wonderful years together, unfortunately no children, so count your blessings having a child to love. My thoughts are with you 
Oh Phil! I’m so sorry. I’m so glad this community is here. Phil, please know we are all here for each other. Not knowing one another allows us to open our heart with no judgment! We are all going through the same type of loss. Everyone has to be sick of me (in person) going on and on about how much I love him. Unless they’ve even been as lucky as we were in love, I feel like no one understands.
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Please know you are so lucky to have had your best friend and soulmate a lifetime. God knows if somehow we can make it through this, then we’re the lucky ones. Doesn’t feel that way right now: Some never get the opportunity to experience this amazing kind of pure love. My heart and love goes out to you!
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Flints, I’m pouring my heart, soul, and love into you right now! I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m lucky my husband didn’t have to suffer, as he’s suffered so much physical and young life emotional pain and he did not deserve any of this. I thank God he took him while laying in my arms and knowing I was the last person to give him air for his lungs, it doesn’t make it easier but I do find grace and kindness knowing this. Only a short 30 minutes later I would’ve been at work and he would’ve been alone and had his keys been in his truck and not had to come back in the house looking for them, again, he would’ve died alone. You have a friend in us. Again, my heart goes out to you!
@Jacrobthorn oh i am so sorry you are now in this group going through torment of grief it is such a terrible place to be i feel for you and loss too i too lost my Linda on 8/10/24 after 14 years together was supposed to marry this year and she didn’t quite make it to 54 in dec she was in hospital and improving drs said be home in 2/3 weeks then next day caught covid gone in three days god it is so difficult dealing with this im now looking after Linda’s mum she os frail and elderly not well herself and no family of mine or close friends at all only Linda’s daughter but lives long way off us so hard to keep coming over it is being broke i know tears us apart and something we have to bear as im sure you now realise that i too talk to linda a lot and bought a note book as my brain fog is relentless i just struggle to remember anything i hope someday you can find some peace and remember the good times without it hurting too much its a long road im afraid big hug to you and my thoughts hope you take care reach out on here there are lots of us inc myself would try to help
Martin
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