I lost my darling husband of 58yrs in April,l am heartbroken,it feels my life is over, friends ring but it’s all about them ,never visit,my son only visits every 3/4weeks,l feel people think that’s it you should be getting back to normal now, l do have a close friend but she is stopped talking about ,how am l ,l have never had any support through all of this l arranged and sorted everything by myself, l feel so alone and feel life as ended ,l just go through the motions ,will it get any better,l did try a bearevement group but it wasn’t for me .
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Ginny so sorry for your loss.
I lost my wife, Jackie, in March so it’s recent for me as well.
We would have been married 58 years in September, although we have been together for 60 years.
Sadly people do not understand how the los of a partner affects you.
There is no normal. You may learn to live with losing someone you have spent the best part of your life with, but you don’t get over it. 
I will never forget Jackie and will aways love her forever. 
I have just come back from a bereavement cafe and while I thought it wasn’t for me at first, it got me out of the house and talking to people who understood what losing a partner meant.
Sadly grief is the price we pay for love and we both have heavy prices to pay.
You look after yourself
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Ginny, I am sorry that you are feeling so down. At least on here we are all having this hard experience so do understand what you are going through. My Darling wife of 52 years left me in April 2024. I saw this some time ago but it hits the spot. " Time cannot heal a heartache, nor stop a silent tear, or take away the memories of one we held so dear." So I try and hang on to the happy memories, and there are lots of them, and put the first two down as the price for having Elizabeth in my life for 53 years. After 15 months I can manage the grief a bit better, and do get some good days and even some enjoyment. I will never be the same but I think that life will become livable. To me getting some social interaction seems to help, I belong to my wife’s book club that meets once a month, I joined it by accident, another story, Anyway enough of a ramble, please come on here for a chat, a rant at the world, or a ramble like I just have. We will all understand. Sending you hug, like from your brother.
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Thank you for your kind words it does help to understand that l am not alone with my pain ,l must share as a memorial to him ,l have had a arm tattoo done ,not bad for a 75 yr old it is something that is close to me and will be with me till l pass away, l will keep posting hope you will do the same ,take care
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I totally understand where you are coming from.
I lost my husband in April.
I have one daughter that stopped visiting and the other every few weeks.
It’s my granddaughter who is the most understanding.
She said everyone’s life has gone back to normal. So they expect mine to do too. Where has mine will never go back to how it was. She is a wise 18,I’m lucky to have her in my life.
It’s such a difficult road to be on, especially without support and understanding…
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Thank you for your reply,l have a grandson who is my rock ,but he doesn’t talk about how l am feeling,l think from reading all of the posts we all are going and feeling the same pain and heartache,it does seem it is the old saying Till you walk in my shoes,unless you are then nobody will ever understand what you are going through,l have got some comfort from reading posts ,to know l am not going mad or alone take care
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I am so sorry for your loss
How are you doing?
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Thank you for asking,l wake up in the morning,and start another day, same as yesterday and the day before,l see no future,l am talking to my husband as though he is still here,this is the 9th day not seeing or talking to anyone, today l can’t get motivated to do much,will try and go into town tomorrow but l live on the coast so at the moment it’s full of holiday makers all having a good time,so it’s a bit depressing,but each day at a time take care
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I am so very sorry. Do you want to chat?
Thank you for the kind offer,l really appreciate it,but l don’t really know what to say,
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Anything you want. If you want to vent, cry scream whichever helps
At the moment,l could do all of that but feel l haven’t got the energy,
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Well then tell me about that. Have you any family?
Yes l have a son and grandson,l had a daughter but we lost her 5 yrs ago to MS ,my son doesn’t show emotions or how to deal with them ,l did try to talk to him about how l was feeling and need his support l thought he had listened but l am back to 3/4 weeks visits my grandson is a regular visitor but works shifts l feel like the blackboard with his photo on as been wiped clean,it was my husband’s birthday 2weeks ago but it wasn’t acknowledged,they walked in on the day l had bought some red roses and a card but nothing just a stare,l have accepted it l am on my own ,it’s a waste of time expecting anything more,keep my feelings to myself,l only have 1close friend but her and her husband are always jetting off on holidays so l don’t see her regularly,l must finish now,l am getting to upset ,will be intouch again ,how are you doing?
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My partner passed 13 weeks ago. I have a son and my little dog. I am a only child my dad contacts me everyday. I feel it’s getting harder
I have Ms . No sleeping pills work. I have not slept and feel I am loosing my mind
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So sorry that you have ms to cope with as well,l have seen what it does, try and keep positive with it ,my daughter lived with it for over 30 yrs only 21 when diagnosed, l will keep in touch but l feel exhausted at this time. Sending you lots of hugs take care (l will be in touch in a few days to see how you are doing and feeling)
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If you need me I am here.
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Ginny3 - I’m sorry for your loss. My husband died 22 months ago after a 10 month fight to beat the odds. We were together 50 years and everyvday i miss him so. Today I woke up with tears streaming, no reason just missing him. I have thrown myself into our lawn bowls sport we shared. He must be watching over me as I’m in the semi finals! Perhaps thats why I cried today, as last night I won the quarter final but came home to an empty house, when before we would congratulate each other on achievements and celebrate together.
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Thank you for your post,l have got much help from all the posts l have received,l thought l was going mad with the grief l am experiencing,and that l should try and overcome it,but l have learned that it is a unbearable loss and we never recover,we just put on that brave face to others and grieve in private,take care
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Hi Ginny, so sorry for your loss, 58 years is amazing and you need to try and appreciate with time how lucky you were to have so many wonderful years together. I wish I could say it gets easier with time, but I lost my wonderful husband of 50 years, one year ago yesterday, and it’s no less painful than when it happened. Try to stay strong, remember the good times you had and remember that you are not alone with your grief kind wishes and hugs, Trish
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