Hi
I’ve just had a message from Sue Ryder admin to say that I can’t share the phone number and that they will delete it. If you want the number please PM me. I thought I was going mad as I was sure I posted it last night!
Deborah xx
Helllo all dear friends it’s not even Mother’s Day and I am weeping .I have jut sorted out Dawns last Mother’s Day cards and the beautiful words she wrote was just too much Especially thanking me for being such a wonderful mum and every thing I had done for her.Oh feel it just wasn’t enough other wise she might still be here.Love Maddie xxx
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Hello Purple,
What a lovely photo of you both. and as you say.
I saw a medium his name was Marcus. He said Sam said (and up to that point I hadn’t even said his name) look at you 60th Birthday card and read what he’s written. Sam would always put the same thing in his cards thanks for everything you do love Sam, so when I came home I got it out. 'All my love always Sam, that was in the April before we all knew he had been rediagnosed. I think he knew. Geraint his elder brother will bring a card and present down and the card will read with all our love Ger and Sam. It’s going to hurt but there it is our lot. Like you said we will all be united Sunday we will always be mother’s.
I have kept reading your posts , I like you light a candle but I light it each night Sam loved the smell of this pink candle I had gotten from Ikea so now I have them stored in the garage so I don’t run out and light the pink candle each night Summer and Winter. I am so glad Deborah that you have taken courage in both hands and seen a counsellor I am not sure that I have the courage to do that. I would love to have the details of the medium you saw, if you don’t mind, Deborah.
Maddie, Dawn loved you very much and that bond cannot be broken just because they are in another room. We shall be in that room soon enough and we can put our arms around them then.
MY mind still talks to you,
My heart still looks for you but
my soul knows you are at peace
I miss you every single day.
With love to you all especially thinking of us all this Sunday…We will get through,
Love Helen
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Thank you Helen,beautiful words .Hope you are ok? Xx
Hi Maddie,
I’m OK’ish…because of Sunday, it is so hard and I’m feeling it but there we are all here in this cycle, hope you’re OK I have another jigsaw for John, I have just started it it is Tower Bridge at Sunset, tel him Im finding it really really hard.
This will never end we just have to find a way through, we will always love them and therefore that bond will never be broken. With great love comes great grief that is the price we pay.
Love
Helen
Oh Helen you are so right because we loved then it makes the pain harder,a pain that won’t go away. Can you believe it’s over 4years since we lost them? Like your poem said we. hope they are at peace that’s all we can ask for .Just spoke to VIctoria through text she is coming to visit as soon as aloud ,then we were going to find away of all meeting up ,perhaps using a central point for those he would like to meet up perhaps for an over night stay .Hopefully we are off to Cornwall end of may .perhaps just the 6of us could meet up as planed last year.John says he is looking forward to the puzzle.He has just finished a clock puzzle and it works Do you still have plenty of Sams favourite canldles? Take care will be thinking of Sam and all Sons and Daughters on Sunday Maddie xx
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Dear Maddie, Helen and all dear friends. I so enjoyed speaking to Helen for the first time yesterday. It was emotional for us but joyful too. So looking forward to meeting her when she is on holiday up here in the summer.
I would also love to meet up sometime. I can fly from Inverness to Manchester Birmingham Bristol and Stanstead or maybe Luton.
I know some of you are towards the southwest so Bristol is a short flight for me.
Sending love and peace to you all this special weekend.
The build up has been on my mind so I painted Brooke’s room here for her. It’s a big room and nearly damn killed me but I did it and it kept me from fretting.
Very satisfying to have done it but quite tired today.
Lighting candles for our lost children tomorrow will unite us even more.
Kate 
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Dear all,
For those of us fortunate to have other children it certainly helps to get through days like tomorrow but my heart goes out to anyone who has lost there only child 
my friend just messaged me to say she was thinking of me and she lost her only son in 2009, she is a little further down this horrendous journey than us and is such a lovely person always thinking of others she has had very dark days and she and her husband did at first feel that there was no point going on but they are still fighting strong but still have very bad days but carry on in tge knowledge that one day they will be with their beloved Son, one of the things that helps is doing things that help keep his memory alive 
i would love to meet up and live in Birmingham so easy to get most places, it would be lovely to all have big hugs in person 
take care dear moms thinking of you all tomorrow.
Lots of love Michelle xxx
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Yes Michelle ,we will all meet up this year ,we will sort something out .We all need a big hug . .Maddie xx
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brilliant do you have a number I cancontact her on?
xxHelen
Ill PM it to you x
Hi Deborah could you pm the number too please? I tried to pm you yesterday but not sure it worked? xxx
As I sit in Heaven and I watch you everyday
I try to let you know with signs that I never went away
I hear you when your laughing and watch you as you sleep
I even place my arm around you to calm you when you weep
I see you wish the days away begging to have me home
So I try to send you signs so you know you’re not alone
Heaven is truly beautiful, just you wait, wait and see so live your life, laugh again, enjoy yourself be free, then I know with every breath you take you`ll be taking one for me
That is whar all of our children would expect!!
With love Helen
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Dear friends,
Thinking of each and everyone of you especially on this day. We are so blessed to have such amazing sons and daughters and, although we can’t physically hold them I feel our boy, Daniel embracing me and keeping us safe. Love never dies.
The biggest hug to you all. Love Wynne xxx
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Gemma’s little one, Charlie, was 8 when he lost his mummy. We took him on holiday that summer and made this in the sand out of shells. He then said ‘Grandma do you think mummy can see it from heaven?’ Bless him … he is loved so much by all of us. In her farewell letter my darling girl said ‘Charlie and Coren are surrounded by so much love’ but she just couldn’t carry on
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Beautiful beyond words.xxx
Oh Victoria ,bless little Charlie,today must be so painful for all of you today . Mothering Sunday is as bad as any anniversaries or birthdays love to you all Maddie xx
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Dear all dear friends. I just wanted to say to you all that it was so good for me to talk to Helen as finally I was talking to the first person since we lost Lisa who truly understood what it is like for us. I am truly thankful that we have all found each other. One day soon when lockdown is over we can all try to be together as we have a unique bond.
Love to all of you. See you all soon.
Katexxx
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I don’t know if any of you have heard the song ‘Supermarket Flowers’ by Ed Sheerhan? Coren, Gemma’s son, chose it to be played at his mummy’s service. It really sums up how I feel … I am trying hard not to be sad but it is so hard and so unfair for all of us.
I wish we were all together today and could have a big hug, as Deborah has just said.
Sending so much love to you all dear friends 
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