Dear Anne and Maddie,
How lovely! It really does raise my spirits to hear of your amazing signs. I am sure our children do send us signs as they are so difficult to explain and sometimes we just know. At my dad’s funeral I was upset. My auntie came to me and said ‘don’t worry darling. He’s not very far away’. What a lovely thought 
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Dear Anne and All dear friends. Some of you who have arrived here later than some of us won’t have seen some of my earlier posts in the weeks following Lisa’s passing.
Anyway, Lisa loved the TV drama Keeping Faith. She watched it in hospital and watched it the night before she left us.
So, I came home from Aberdeen on the Saturday after the Thursday we lost her. I was still in shock but on the Sunday morning I walked the dogs in the forest. I got into the car and Faith’s song was on the radio.
I walked them and got back in the car 45 minutes later and Faith’s sing was on the radio. That Sunday evening I got the dogs in the car and switched on the ignition and Faith’s song was on the radio! If this was not a sign from Lisa then I cannot explain.
Love to you all.
Kate xxxx
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Thats amazing Kate, there is absolutely no way that could be a coincidence, just too many times.
When I had a car I used to ask my mum to play something to help me, so many times something would come on as I switched car on that seemed to address what I was going through and then the day I was handing in my notice at the job I’d had for 19 years I spoke out loud to her, when I switched car on paloma faith- everything is changing( I’ve been here too long) came on. We have to believe they are with us.
Anne xx
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Hi
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss of your son. I lost my daughter to cancer when she was 30 (diagnosed at 28) so I have some idea but every experience of grief is different.
All I can say is, one step, one day at a time. Some days or weeks there are no steps. It all just stops. Other times you do find yourself forgetting about what’s happened and that seems shocking and almost unforgiveable - but it isn’t.
These are early days and I remember it being hard to get from breakfast to bedtime as everything seemed so utterly pointless. There are many layers which unfold in time. I find that often she is still in my life, but just hasn’t come home from work yet or might still be sleeping. I allow these feelings and they are comforting even if they seem odd. Then sometimes I need her and feel outraged like “why isn’t she here?!” just like when she was late home from a party as a teenager. I think you learn to live with the child that’s lost in a different way. Always know that they would be here if they could to take the pain away, but they can’t right now so you have to do it as best you can by honouring their memory and also living your own life. I try and live some of the life my daughter can’t and am grateful for every sunset I see and every bit of morning birdsong I hear. I find this helps to remember that there is a world full of life waiting patiently for me when you I am ready and no sooner.
Keep being with your feelings, they will lighten and change over time so to be manageable.
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Hello, I feel like you. I am getting on with my life and living some of Lisa’s for her too. Last week with the lovely weather I did lots of nice things with Brooke. At the big park she was climbing up a wooden tower to come down the slide and I heard myself saying, Look Lisa, look how strong she has become. A tear ran down my cheek as I hurried off behind Brooke to another climbing , balancing thing. She looked so like her Mummy that again, I said out loud, Look how much she is like you as a child. I had a warm sensation through my body as if Lisa was telling me she could see her wee girl.
Love lives on beyond the grave I think.
With love Kate x
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I am tearful as I write this because I am so envious 
How lovely to have a small little being who is part of your girl to live on! I wish Bryony could have left me a child of hers. That was all she wanted was to have kids but was glad she didn’t when she was diagnosed. I’m not sure I could have coped with a child after the funeral but I don’t have any family support so it would have been very difficult indeed.
That is so lovely for you and that she will grow up so cherished which is more than a lot of children are. And from what I’ve seen women that have lost their mothers young become quite hugh achievers like Madonna.
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Thankyou. She is a darling and so is her Daddy. We have been very fortunate as Jamie was so in love and still is in love with Lisa. He is a wonderful Daddy and always turns Brooke out really nicely. Very proud of him.
Sending Love.
Kate x
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Awww she’s a cutey! And will get moreso the older she gets.
Oh she is a darling ,Kate , she has that cheeky look about her ,she looks very content.Hope one day if we get up to see you ,we might meet her . Sometimes I wish Dawn had been able to carry children as there would be something Left of her .
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Sorry messed that up (new phone still trying to get used to it )But as we do not see her husband any more ,he might refused to let us see any grandchildren . Maddie xx
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Definitely Maddie, when we eventually meet I will hopefully be able to get her to come with me.xx
What a gorgeous girl xxx
Thankyou. She is a very good wee girl too.x
She is a sweetie. As you know, Gemma has two boys and I find it unbearably sad that they have to grow up without her. There is a big age gap as Coren was 20 and Charlie
was 8. We are lucky to see them all the time and we are parent figures to Coren (we are trying to sort his car out for him right now!)
This is Charlie, taken at Easter and I’ll look one out of Coren xxx
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This is Coren with his mummy, taken just a few short weeks before she left us. He had grown a beard
then bless him! Such a lovely boy and has never given us a minutes worry … he is my superstar
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Hello v ictoria , Gemma is so beautiful, and what beautiful children she has.She looks so happy in this photo, it’ must to so hard to except the pain she must have been feeling inside. With love Maddiexxxxx
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Thank you Maddie, you are right. It does make it so hard to accept, for all of us. We have all suffered so much but I am so glad we all found each other here. Much love to you xxx
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Happy little face! We are blessed. Lovely young man Coren is too. Gemma was truly beautiful.
All my love, Kate xxx
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Hi Anne
That is an amazing sign from Scott! So lovely. I too had a sign yesterday. Some time ago I found 2 little white feathers in my house. I put them in the hands of my daughters buddha which is next to her urn and they have stayed there for weeks. Every morning I say hello to her and the feathers were there. I went out and when I returned the 2 feathers were together on the the other side of the room! I have tried to find an explanation for it, no draughts nothing. Even if there was they could not have travelled that far. It was definitely Kathryn letting me know that she is here xx
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Lovely pictures Victoria, Gemma looks so happy and confident, precious memories. Our hearts must be enormous, holding our children, our pride for them and the wonderful memories.
Kate, It’s lovely to see Brooke enjoying herself. We do everything we can to help them.
Love
Chris x
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