Hi Deborah
I’m so sorry we are going through this.
I did have a good day on Saturday, I went for a walk with a friend, she was chatty and it took my mind off Scott a wee bit although he is always there .
We were in George Square in Glasgow and about 20 people were protesting the lockdown and my friend and I couldnt help but laugh at them, they were a weird group of people, I knew Scott would have laughed too. I texted my friend later to thank her as it was the first time I had laughed since I lost him and she said it was the first glimmer of the old me she had seen.
You are still there, we aren’t the people we used to be and we will never enjoy life the way we did but we can still have some good moments here and there.
I know you will too, even if it’s just feeling the sun when you are gardening or seeing your plants flower.
Thinking of you xx
Anne
Thank you Kate xxx
Dear Anne and all friends here. Today I had a sign. The first since the Robin popping out on my dog walk a couple of weeks ago. We had our 2nd covid jags yesterday and apart from feeling a bit sleepy in the evening, felt OK. However, I had a terrible nightmare. I was on a plane with Jemma and Lisa and Lisa suddenly took ill and passed away on the flight. The flight attendants moved us away and I was in a panic when the plane landed as we couldn’t find her and nobody would help us. I woke up sweating and frightened.
I went to get myself a coffee and took it to bed while I waited for Brooke to wake up. I watched the snow falling and then a pure white Dove flew past the window and into the trees opposite . It was magical. I have never ever seen Dove here in the 30 years we have lived here.
I think it was Lisa telling me it was OK and not to worry anymore. She is OK.
With love to all Kate xxx
Thank you all for your lovely words. Your posts really are a comfort and I don’t feel so alone after reading them. Love to you all Deborah xx
Dear Kate, I am so glad you had that lovely sign. So reassuring. When I was looking for Gemma I looked up at the trees and a pure white dove flew straight out and up into the sky. I just knew that was a sign from Gemma xxx
Thats wonderful Kate
Anne xxx
That is lovely Kate. I haven’t had any signs for a while. I keep looking xx
Hello all lovely friends. Just hoping you are all getting through each day OK. The nice weather has lifted my spirits and having Brooke during the week over the school holidays, has kept my mind (and body) occupied. Where do 5 year olds get so much energy! Such a joy she is.
Sending live to you all.
Kate xxx
 Hi all tried to upload some pics of my grandchildren but it’s not working! How do you upload your photos?
Hi,I just typed my text then tapped the photo image bottom right and it goes to files. Then from files select gallery and then tick what you want to send. Not an expert, but hope I have hoped. Xxx
Hi @DeborahY
@Lisa_s_Mum is right, although you may find the photo icon is at the top.
Our Help page on the subject may be a little out of date – it’s really easy now, once you click the photo icon – but it should at least help you navigate to the right place: https://community.sueryder.org/privacy#picture
Best wishes
Mick
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Hi Kate
Brooke looks full of energy I would imagine she tires you out. Been feeling rather down and tearful these last few days thinking of Sam. Sorry to sound so miserable, because Im not sleeping well so really really tired all the time xxHelen
Hi Helen
Sorry to hear that you are really down and tearful. I have been the same. Dreadful in fact. I’ve tried to keep myself busy in the garden but then think what’s the point. Sending love and hugs xx
Hi Helen. It’s tough isn’t it. I felt a bit lost for a few days but this week much better.
However, not sleeping well will bring you down and you won’t be able to cope.
Sending love and hope you feel better soon.
Kate xxx
Hello,Helen Kate ,Deborah. .Yes feeling the same,it’s still hard to come to terms with losing Dawn even after 4years. Some days I am so eager to tell her something. We used to share so much ,we loved the same things .I thought with better weather coming and slowly coming of lockdown I thought I would be feeling better ,but I feel just the opposite We did manage to meet friends and have our first pub meal which was nice . . But there is always that one person missing i n our lives ,that leaves that constant ache in our hearts . Sending love Maddie xx
Hello all,
I have been feeling very tired this week and no energy at all, although I had a lot going on last week.
I realise that it doesn’t take much to tip us off balance and think it will always be that way now, after what we have suffered, it lowers our resistance and so we need to look after ourselves. A friend recommended the ‘Great Grief Project’ so will have a look at that online later and maybe find some low calorie treats!
I hope you all have a good weekend. Much love to you all xxx
Yep. Strange feelings for us all just now. Maybe the Spring awakening. When everything is starting to grow. We are all stuck at ground zero. Our lovely children left us and 7 our lives were met with a ‘Halt’ sign. It is just so endless this grief. It goes on and on. Pops up when we think we are fine and drags us down again. Will we ever feel normal again? Well i think we all know the answer to that.
Love to you all. Kate xx
Hi everyone
I think I got a sign today
I bought a bracelet with a rose gold heart and had Scotts name engraved on it.
I now have 2 of Scotts guinea pigs and their new cage arrived today, when I opened the box there was a rose gold heart inside…I cant quite believe what I’m seeing
Anne xxxx
Oh I am so pleased for you ANne that has got to be a definite sign we did say you would get some siigns from Scott .I think I have been lucky too ,as I was watching the Long Island Medium as I always do on a Saturday and I am always looking at Dawns photo and talking to her at the same ,asking her for some sort of sign that the Medium has given to someone on the program When the tv changed channels ,and it has happened when I have been watching it before And then this afternoon John and I was sitting in the lovely sunshine on the decking ,and a lovely white fluffy feather floated right down in front of us . Oh let’s hope the signs are from our beautiful children ,trying to cheer us all up ,as I think we have all been feeling really down again . Love Maddie xx