Hi Maddie
I’m so sorry that you are going through this. Sending hugs Deborah xxx
Maddie I’m so sorry, heartbreaking, you’ve gone through enough. It’s too pain to endure.
Anne x
Thankyou everyone , for all your kind words xxxx
When does this pain get any easier. When do I stop expecting her to walk through the door with her happy smiling face and say hey mum. When do I stop driving somewhere with no recollection of how I got there as all I can think of is her. Can I ever again find any joy in anything knowing that she cannot share it. I can’t sleep anymore, I eat only because I have to for survival although I couldn’t care less. I cannot cope with every day things and cry constantly. If someone mentions her name I break. I long to see my beautiful caring, kind daughter again. She was an amazing special person 
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Hi Deborah, I can relate to you in everything you say .i don’t think it will get any easier for a long .How could , we all miss our precious Daughters and Sons , they were are life , we lived to see them happy ,marry ,have children and hopefully look after us in our old age …I long to talk to Dawn , my heart does actually ache for her when I think of her, I still cannot believe some days that she has gone , it just doesn’t seem possible , she fought back so many times .Sending Love to all Maddie xx
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So true Maddie. Just today I had several reminders of our little girl. I went to Dunelm and I remembered sitting in the cafe waiting for Lisa to come for lunch. At the time she was working part time at Hobbycraft which is next door. I used to go see her, get her order and then wait for her to come and join me.
Then driving home there was an ad on the radio about Business Gateway. Lisa attended a few courses when she joined Jemma’s business as Marketing Manager to learn more about marketing. I can see myself dropping her off at Inverness campus, picking her up from the station when she hD been to
had been to Fort William and Glasgow on a course. It hurts so much.
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Kate, always sending love. Xx
Michelle, that it such an accurate description of our situation. So true in every word. Thank you for sharing this.
Deborah, I agree and feel your pain. It’s constant and so difficult to bear. Getting through each day is like climbing a mountain. Be kind to yourself.
Love to all
Chris x
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Hi,Kate,there so many things to remind us of our Children .I used to love Srictly and Dawn was so looking forward to seeing the finals but she never got to see it ,so I can’t bear to watch that now .Cant beat to watch Casulty,Holly city, in fact no hospital programs . And so many more things .Sounds ridiculous , but just find certain things too painful Take care xxx
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I can identify with what you said. It doesn’t really worry me watching folk in Icu in the news but Jemma can’t bear the sounds of the ICU. So many alarms going off, it takes her back.
Reading that link this morning I too can honestly say I am not the same person. Ok, Iook after my health, appearanc etc but inside I am totally changed. No bounce in my step, feel sad inside all the time, cry alone as no doubt we all do.
How can we ever be the women we were? We just manage and that’s all we can do.
Love to you all.
Kate xx
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No Kate will never be the woman again, there will always be a dull ache inside us What hurts is you have to put on a mask when meeting company , just because they don’t want to be depressed listening to our sad stories about loss . That’s why it’s so good on this site ,to pour out our hearts xxxx
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So true, but it certainly lets us know who our true friends are as they will sit quietly with us, handing tissues, a glass of wine or whatever they think will help us. They don’t say any stupid things, they sit with us, cry with us and understand as much as they are able without being in our club!
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Hi I know your feelings. I can’t ever imagine a spring in my step or to laugh at something funny or to even feel joy at a sunrise or sunset. My heart like all of yours feels ripped apart. Our children were and still are so precious to us. No one but all of us knows the pain that we feel and I am so glad that I found you all xx
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It is a situation that none of us ever thought we would be in. We didn’t have a rehearsal, we didn’t have a plan, we just had it placed like a pile of rocks I front of us. We have had to try and climb over, moving rock by rock one at a time till we feel are making progress. Goodness knows how long it will take to get all these rocks moved out of the way of our lives.
Love and hugs. Kate xx
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Such apt words Kate. None of us want to be in this club of heartache and pain but so glad that we have found each other. Deborah xx
Drar Deborah,
It will be two weeks on the 5th May since we lost our darling boy it doesn’t get any easier it still feels so raw and I’m sorry to say I don’t think you will ever have a spring in your step, you will laugh though and you will say things like your precious girl would have found that so funny, you will watch rge sunsets and they make you feel close to your children, we are duty bound to carry in in the memory of our precious children and keep going for our:pray: other children but that old life will never be as it was before its a different one now, I used to wish I could have a tablet substitute for food as I had no interest but I am now cooking again and eating healthy, keep the fairy dear friend you are never alone 
Keep the faith 
there you go I just laughed 
Dear Chris,
I am so glad you found this article useful, I might send for her book will let you know if I do, take care my friend
Love Michelle xxxx
Hi that did make me laugh. Fairy LOL! My birthday on the 4th. I will be thinking of you on the 5th. We now have a new inquest date 13th May. It will be by video link. I attended lots of these with my job role last year. As I know what is revealed during the proceedings I will not be attending but her dad and brother and sister will be. I am finding it difficult to breathe let alone cope with that. We are going to lay flowers with the police at the accident site on Sunday. I haven’t been up to it before xxx
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Bkess , that will be hard for you I will be thinking of you Sunday, we still havnt got a date for the inquest they blame everything on Covid but think it might be September, its like we can’t move forward with our grief with it hanging over us, take care glad I made you smile 
Much love Michelle xxx