That would be nice. Deborah x
Hi All, sorry I canāt make July either but perhaps could do one later in the year 
hope everyone is ok
Sending love to all
Michelle xxx
Yes please! I am 3 and a half hours from Edinburgh but could meet in the Borders as another hour is no matter.
Peebles or Melrose or wherever. Even Carlisle is good for me.
Love to you all. Feel like we have known each other for ever.
Kate xxxx
Donāt worry Michelle , wlll meet up sometime xxx
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Itās probably going to be difficult at the moment Maddie as Iām working with my boss currently to build my hours back up.
Finding it exhausting but I would love love love to meet you all one day
Anne xxxx
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Hi all
The inquest yesterday was upsetting for those that attended. Having my daughters last moments of life described was heartbreaking. I am trying to come to terms with the fact that my beautiful girl has gone. I just canāt stop crying 
Deborah xx
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Oh my dear friend. I wish I could hold you in my arms and comfort you. I canāt even imagine how distressing this would have been for you. Please know that we are all thinking of you and your family.
With love, Kate xxxxx
Oh Deborah , oh my heart breaks for you . To have to sit and listen to that awful time I just couldnāt imagine what it must have been like for you. . .I know how vivid that l night night when Dawn passed away is still fresh in my mind , the worse night of my lifeI will never forget it ever , please take care . Will be thinking of you, and your darling girl . Sending love Maddie xxxx
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Dear Deborah,
Am so sorry for you 
have been thinking about you and your family, no one will ever understand this pain us parents have to endure every day for the rest of our lives without our dear children, every morning we wake up and relive the nightmare over and over again, sending you my love dear friend 
Michelle xxxx
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Hi Kate and Maddie
Thank you for your lovely posts. I am currently immersing myself in a bottle of wine. Very hard to cope xx
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Thank you Michelle, my whole family is heartbroken
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Oh Deborah,
I am thinking of you, Deborah it is so hard to bear let alone what you have gone through with the inquest.
Stay strong Deborah, your daughter would expect that.
Love Helen
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Thanks Helen, Iām trying to be strong for everyone but inside I just want to give up. I admire you all for carrying on with so much pain. Deborah xxx
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Hi Deborah,
Sad thing is we have no choice but to carry on, there is many a time I have wished so hard just to curl up and die, go to sleep and never wake up and then I think of Sam and how hard he tried and he makes me carry on whether I want to or not. It never getās easier just that the pain comes sporadically and winds you unlike in the early days when it was overwhelming.
To be frank, (and I think Sam knew) with the type of tumour he had he should have had about a year from the operation but with sheer determination and guts he lived a further 4 years and was only ill from about the last month, so that is why I have no choiceā¦his friend Sam Jordan said to me we used to forget he had a tumour in the brain, he just carried on regardless.
Love Helen
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Helen, thatās exactly what I feel about Lisa. She was so determined to survive and did her very best for her baby girl and so I am determined to do my very best for Brooke and all our family. Xxx
Hi it must have been so hard to see your children suffer and to know that there time on this earth was limited. My heart goes out to you. I didnāt have that, all I had was saying goodbye to my daughter at 6pm and at 9pm a police officer coming to my door to say that she was gone. I donāt think that even now I have got over the shock . I miss that shining, clever, beautiful girl so much. I was a happy, positive person, I am now a broken person that has no enthusiasm for the future xx
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Hi Deborah, it must have been dreadful for your family it will be going over and over in your minds. At least itās now over, somehow youāve got through it. I understand your hopelessness. Loosing our children is so devastating. We are forever traumatised.
Take care and be kind to yourself
Love Chris x
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I feel same Deborah but Iām trying to think that although I feel broken I can through my job make someoneās day, make other people feel good about themselves. I always did try to anyway but now all the more.
I dont care about my future without Scott but I care about Euan and I care about all the people who looked after me
Like you I said goodbye to my boy on Saturday morning and by 3.16 on Sunday morning he was gone and like you Iām still in shock.
Iām so sorry for everyone and everything you have all been through but Iām so grateful to have other people who understand the pain and that life canāt ever be the same again without our precious children.
Anne xxx
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Dear Helen
Your Sam sounds like the most amazing young man. How proud you must be of him carrying on and fighting for those 4 years.
Iām glad you have those extra years of wonderful memories
Anne xx
Hi Deborah,
Chris is right, and yes you will miss your daughter of that there is not a shadow of doubt, and no none of us any enthusiansm for the future but we keep putting one foot in front of the other and slowly we go forward as your daughter, Sam Lisa, Matt Gemma Dawn and all our children would expect, they would expect nothing less than our best however hard the road is and believe me it is so hard.
With love
Helen
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