Thank you Chris, that’s so kind 
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Hi everyone .you are all so kind .thankyou for your kindness. I would be lost without this site. Your support is so appreciated. Having such a bad day . I keep thinking come on sam you can come back now. But he cant . Just had his 25th birthday so wrong this world i really hope hes walking beside me. Last few years had so much to cope with .i had cancer .lost my mum. Jess lost a baby .baby elsie hope her uncle sams with her . Then when sam was ill jess got a benign tumor in her mouth shes doing well. It makes me question everything but this is the worst horrific thing loosing my beauti sam .he was the most special boy ever .our superhero sorry to go on . Sam was born with his main heart valves round wrong way had massive surgery he got through it .so why did they take him now just want him back. He past on the 27th april my mums birthday .do you think shes with him . Sorry just need to talk feel so sad today . Jess had booked for us to go out tomorrow .for my 60 th . But i just want sam . Thank you for being here xxxxx zoe xxxx
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You sound such a lovely person and like all of us on this sight it’s cruel and unfair you have lost your lovely boy and difficult to know how you will survive without him, It will be four years in December since we lost Christian our son and it seems like only yesterday, the tears are still there but more controllable, the love and the pride for him is greater then ever and the longing to see him, to hear his voice, touch him and give him a massive hug will never go away they will live with me always, but we have to carry on with life for the sake of our families whom we now appreciate more then ever. It will never be easy but it will get easier to accept …We had many many glorious years with Christian and I thought he was with us forever but it’s a cruel world at times like we have all of found out.
Finding this site has helped me so much ,just to know you are not alone has been the biggest comfort of all, Keep posting you can say just how you feel knowing you will be understood and comforted.
Take care …Marina xxx
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Thinking of you Zoe. We all struggle at times. It is a pain only we can understand.
Take care my love.
Kate xxx
Hope you are OK. Life is so unfair.
Sending hugs.
Kate xxx
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Hi marina thank you for replying .as you know its a pain like no other . I hope time will make it less painful thank you so much for your kind words .ive come round jesses she has three children 8 5 3 thank god for them .i have to try for jess shes broken sam was her best friend love and hugs zoe …xxxthank you xxx
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Thank you kate . Moments that take your breath away . Im ok much love zoe x
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Hi Zoe,
Like Marina says you sound a lovely person. Samwill be with your nan and also he will be looking after Jess’s baby. Just because they are not here does not mean they are gone. There is many a time I have called out to my Sam for help and it always seems to be there. Try talking out loud to Sam he will hear you. If it was me I would go out with Jess even though you feel like s*** it will help and I am sure Sam would be saying please go mum and hoping you will do so.
I am sure Sam will be around you encouraging you to go. Ask him, you will get a reply.
With all my love
Helen
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I envy you and everybody with grandchildren…Christian never had any and my eldest son doesn’t want any, but… he has three dogs and two cats so they are my fur babies, xxx
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Hi Marina,
My Sam never had any children either whi h is a shame as he would have made an excellent dad but just didn’t want any. My eldest Geraint wanted just the 1, but then they thought … oh let’s have another to keep Stan company and ended up with 2 identical twins, and they are so alike![IMG_59161|640x480]
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Beautiful children Helen.xxx
They are adorable…I could just give them a massive hug…you are lucky to have them xxx
Oh so sweet , little angels. Xx
Hi Zoe, life is so cruel and I am sending you a huge hug. Marina is right … keep on talking to Sam as I am sure it helps. I talk to Gemma, tell her how her boys are doing and all the family stuff. A few weeks after we lost her, I was very upset one day and said out loud ‘Gemma where are you?’ Straight away I heard her voice say ‘I’m here, Mum’. It makes me tearful every time I think of it but it is comforting also. xxx
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This is John and myself with Dawn in her favorite place Disneyworld , where we scattered part of her back in 2018 , but have not be able to go back since . Helen such adorable grandchildren, you are so lucky With love Maddie xx
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Such a lovely photo, Maddie. Dawn is a beautiful girl and you all look so happy 
Hold on to those precious memories Maddie. Painful as they are at times, they are what gets us through.
Love Chris x
