Hi Zoe,
Sam will be flying high, he will always be around you. I feel my Sam around me all the time. Just because we cannot see them does not mean they are not there. He is held deep in your heart, take care Zoe I am thinking of you 
Love helen
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Dear Jss, I lost my daughter 3 years ago. I havenāt had counselling because I could not face it. My daughter had some and it did help her so I think it is different for everyone. Also the timing is different for us all. xx
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FOR ALL US MUMāS ON HERE:-
How I wish I could visit heaven
To make sure you were ok
There was so much left unsaid
So much i want to say
I think about you all the time
How I wish that you were here
Though I cannot see you
I know that you are near
I keep a little piece of you
Forever in my heart
It helps me to remember
That we are not that far apart
Wish I could visit heaven
For I know what I would do
You would be there with open arms
And I would run to you
I would hold you really close
And never let you go
For I love and miss you
More than you will ever know
But now you are an angel
As beautiful as can be
You sit there on your cloud
Juat watching over me
one day we will meet again
When the time is right
When I step out of the darkness
You will be standing in the light
Love Helen
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Thats beautiful Helen. Its the 1st year anniversary tomorrow. I havenāt slept much this week so consequently I feel really tired and weep constantly . I really believe that Kathryn is right beside me hugging me and urging me to carry on. 
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Hello Deborah,
Our loved ones will always be by our side we may not be able to see them but we know when they are around. I can always feel Sam, like you with Kathryn
Love
Helen
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Deborah,
Kathryn knows, tomorrow will be hard, although I find the lead up to it worse than the actual day. I will be thinking of you tomorrow
love Helen
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Darling Deborah, the anniversaries are so very hard. We canāt help thinking back and this time of year is particularly difficult. I wish I could give you a big hug but remember on this site we are all constantly thinking of each other and helping each other through this nightmare.
We have a bond that links us now and I am sure it is no coincidence that we found each other. Sending you lots of love and the biggest of hugs
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Thank you Helen and Victoria. Itās very comforting knowing that you are all here for me and that you really understand my feelings
Love Deborah 
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I think those words are an example of how each and everyone of us are feeling, Beautiful.
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Dearest Deborahā¦I will be thinking of you tomorrow, I know we all dread these anniversaries approaching but somehow we find the strength to get through them and you will too.
Take care of yourself. Marina .xxx
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My thoughts and love will be with you tomorrow. 
Kate x
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Hello Debororah , , when we talked the other day , I knew you were feeling really low , My heart aches for you as I know how you are feeling. John and myself are sending lots of love , and like Victoria says wish we could give you a big hug Maddie xxx
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Thank you Kate xx
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Hi Maddie & John
Thank you. Sending hugs back
Love Deborah xx
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Dear Deborah,
Itās hard to believe a year as passed Iām sure it only feels like yesterday 
your beautiful Kathryn will be at your side as she always is, I feel so sorry for people who donāt have the faith we all do about our children being with us constantly its the only way I cope to know Matt is always with me, we will all be thinking of you tomorrow and will light a candle for your darling daughter 
Love Michelle xxxx
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Dear jss and Zoe,
My heart breaks for you both it would be so lovely if we all lived close and could meet up to chat and a hug, as we are all the only people who truly get how you feel, as you say no matter their age when passing they will always be our babies nothing not even death will break the bond that we as motherās have with our precious children, they are not here physically but they are with us spirituality and will be in our hearts until we join them, you will have many heartbreaking times ahead but know you can come on here and all these lovely kind ladies will know exactly how you feel and we will try and help you or listen to you whatever you say will not be a feeling we havnt had or indeed are still having, but we have each other, take both of you
Love Michelle xxxx
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Dear All,
Just wanted to say how much you help me and others and I am grateful to have your friendship and proud to be part of this lovely kind caring group
Sending my love to you all love Michelle xxxx
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Yes thank you Michelle it does help. Sometimes like all of us I expect I have a total melt down crying uncontrollably feelings like I have never experienced in my life before , I come on here and all the posts help to calm me. Even in the middle of the night, as is often the case someone else is usually on here to . I did look at the site compassionate friends but it looked more complicated to join , so glad I found this site.
Love jss xx
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Thank you so much Michelle. It does not feel like a year. It feels like yesterday and is still so raw. She is with me aways, I am 100% sure of that.
Love Deborah xx
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Deborah, Iāll be thinking of you tomorrow. Anniversaries are so hard, we can barely breath. It is agony. You have managed the build up, which is definitely one of the most difficult parts, you will almost feel a sense of relief tomorrow.
Iām sending love and hugs to help you through.
Love Chris x
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