And Sue . Sorry having. bad day cxx
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I think that none of us are living the lives we hoped for or thought we would and sometimes itās hard to adapt. Iām lucky in that Tiffany and I have become closer since losing Gemma in some ways but Louis struggles with losing her so much and it is hard to talk to him about it. We just all do the best we can. But as Purple says so beautifully, we will be reunited one day xxx
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Iām thinking of you Maddie. I have just poured a very large gin and tonic as I too am having a very bad day. The tears are falling as I am writing this. My ex sister in law who wrote to me all the time died 2 weeks ago and I am feeling that loss as well. She lost her son 35 years ago when he was 15 under really tragic circumstances so she like all of you knew my pain. At least her heart and mind are now free of torment. We spoke about the after life often and I know that she is now with her precious boy. Itās all just so hard
Deborah xx
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Iāve just poured my second gin and diet coke Maddie xxxxx
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Actually Deborahā¦meant to say to you Iām on my second gin, but obviously talking to everyone as we all are.
Love and hugs to you all xxxx
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Good for youā¦Iām on my second brandy and diet dry gingerā¦Itās been my life savour this last four yearsā¦Marina xxx
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On my second large glass of Shiraz!
Nothing unusual about us. Itās what gets us through.
Kate xxx
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Hi everyone reading all your many posts .this mental roller coaster we are on . Tomorrow im going dorset with my friend but i have great anxiety and sadness today . Why has this happened just want sam back its wrong gone in four months getting told at 24 you have less than a year the bravest soul i know . Never moaned never said why me .i have so many questions no answers i feel so angry .im sorry im negative today i thank you for your kindness love zoe
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The baby is Evie my grandaughter xx
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Beautiful happy photos Zoe . I especially love the last one of you all laughingā¦itās so lovely. These are the days we have to look back on and treasure but it still breaks my heartā¦sorry. Crying time again!
Sue xxxxx
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Its mad sue that last pic was mothersday one of sams last trips out this life he was poorly then and i would love to know what we laughed at .he bought me a bracelet with angel wings on And a heart by your side always how sad is that .month later he was gone xx
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Itās so,so very sad Zoe. Andrew died 20th March ā¦one week later it was mothers day. While I was round his flat a few days later I found the lovely mothers day card heād bought for meā¦along with his dads birthday card which was just 4 days after he died. So heartbreaking. Thereās just no sense in any of itā¦is there?? Why???
Sue xxxxxxx
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My boys death day anniversary today. Coincidentally a bottle of Jonny walkers has turned up. If I post anything later. Apologies in advance. 
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No sense sue but our lovely boys will look out for us and we have to do them proud .my darling your amazing such early days for you . .i hate dates thats what we seem to hang on to . Sams funeral was 25 may another date .keep posting sue Andrew would be proud xxx
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Apologies accepted Jim xxxxxxx
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Hi jim you have a lovely drink for your sam .he would be so proud of you how you dont even reliaze you help so many people on here . You always explain as it is . Like i said before you need to write a book take care my friend cheers to you love zoe 
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Thank you Zoeā¦I just miss him SO much 
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No need for apologies Jim, anything to take the heartache away, just be careful xxx
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