Oh Sue, 2 months is such a short time. You are doing so well.
Keep posting, we are always here.
Much love, Kate xx
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Dear Sue, I think we all deal with bereavement so differently. It is lovely that you listen to Andrewâs messages. I wish I could listen to Gemmaâs but I am so scared of being plunged into that deep black hole again. I do talk to her though. Sometimes I feel now as though I am skating on the surface of my life xxx
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Yes it makes sense Victoria.
My photos mean Katherine wonât disappear, but I worry about losing the sound of her voice, which is why I wish I had more vids.
I can think of her and be ok, but talking about her to someone else, writing about her brings the tears, I donât know why. But itâs all new to me.
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I can always remember Gemmaâs voice and can think of it in an instant. A few weeks after we lost her, I was completely distraught and said out loud âGemma where are youâ? Immediately I heard her say âIâm here Mumâ. It makes me cry now to remember that moment and I canât explain it. Life is v hard xxx
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But so good to know she was with you.
I remember Kate saying how Brooke asked Lisa to help her find things. My Kath was always good at that, and Iâve asked her a couple of times to help me. Once we were looking for some ornamental birds that were in the trees in the garden. We searched high and low for days, literally days, then I asked Kath to find them and she took me straight to them.
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Dear lovely friends 
Yes we are all different and we have to navigate this journey and do what is right for us, something that brings one of us great comfort could destroy another and set them right back 
for me personally like Kate I have been reading all Mattâs messages over and over, from the early days it was every night as I felt he was still with me, I did this for months but now I do it when I need to if you know what I mean, I love to be surrounded by his photos but as our girls still live at home I am always guided by their feelings and they say they love it as it brings them comfort, we feel his presence all around us, there is no wrong or right way to grieve but I feel it helps to hear what others do to get through each day, as thatâs all we are doing trying to get through 1 day at a time 
Love to all from Michelle xxxx
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Good morning all . Yeah itâs funny reading the messages gave me some pain but also some comfort. For a moment I thought I had deleted the messages and I panicked, so I will never get rid of them and someday go back and read them when Iâm in a better place.
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Waves of grieve hitting hard today. Iâm thinking itâs because I read those old text messages last night. Not a good day so far. 
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Let it all out. Its part of the healing process.
Take care dear friend.
Lots of love,
Kate x
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Hope you are alright Zoe, I can only imagine how much you are struggling at the moment . As I am to, and thinking of you . Every time I see the Lloydâs commercial on the tv it makes me smile thinking of your Sam, it somehow lifts me a bit as it must you. We will always have so much love for our boys and our hearts are broken with this unrelenting pain, but we must get through some how, one day at a time.
Sending much love , we all care about you here Zoe , hope you are ok . Hugs jss xxx
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And love and hugs to you too, Jss
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Thank you xxx
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Hi jss sorry.im really struggling and to top it of my blood oressure through the roof with a very high pulse .doctor sorting it .another tablet .nothing seems real i just want sam i need a sam hug . Yes love the advert to so much it lifts me to jss . Thank you so much for caring . I know your struggling too. Sending you big hugs jss xxx
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Hi Zoe, Iâm thinking of you too and all of us who know you on here. Just keep on keeping on for today. You will have days better than today. Sending you peaceful thoughts and respect. X
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Thank you so much to all my friends on here .for taking the time to text me .youve all really touched my heart .and i know without this site i would not cope .your kind words .your thoughts feelings help so much . Thank you want to name you all but the list is getting bigger you know its all of you thank you so so much .im really struggling but will try my hardest sam would hate me so sad . My blood pressures through the roof but will get sorted . Your all so lovely so selfless we all on this journey at different stages thank you everyone from the bottem of my heart big hugs love zoe
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Love and hugs to you Zoe xxxxxx
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Been catching up on all your texts i love having sams things about his bedroom is just as it was . I sit and put his trainers on his caps i like photos gives me great comfort .i was really sad because somehow i wiped sams texts from my phone .but have a few videos. I feel very emotional thank you again would be lost without the love on here
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Sending you a big hug Zoe ⌠tomorrow is another day and hopefully you will feel a little brighter 
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Hope you are OK Zoe. Itâs so hard sometimes my darling.
Following on from my posts about where and when I see my old car which I gave to Lisa. Today was weird westherwise, like what we would expect in April. It had been warm and sunny and I popped down to Tesco this morning .
When I came out it was like a different world! Blowing a gale and rain horizontal. Just for a few minutes but weird. So I got the shopping in the boot, jumped in to my car and there it was, opposite, nose to nose, my old car. I thought, omg Lisa, are you here?
Some things we canât explain but I am sure our children are always sending us signs that they are beside us.
Love to you. Kate xx
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I hope it gets better for you. Lots of love
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