Thank you Kate. I think this place helps, it a constant, and there’s something we all have in common and it’s a sharing of nice kind people who show care and wisdom and humanity. Sending you hug xxx
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Sending you love Nell 
Dear Nell, I hope your day has gone better than you feared. Such hard times for you but I am praying for strength and peace for you xxx
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Awwww……thank you. I’ve managed to sleep most of the afternoon. Not feeling great but have felt worse many times since all this happened. Sending you a wish your day has been at least ok. Xxx
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Dear friends. Well, I am feeling a bit exhausted and more than a bit relieved.
I have been churning myself up about asking our son in law about my thoughts on Lisa’s ashes. She wanted us to take them to the North West Coast to Achmelvic which was a special place for her. They are still sitting in Jamie’s kitchen with the ashes of Jeeves Lisa’s dog who we took into our family when Lisa was in hospital.
So, I had an idea that it would be nice for Jamie to plant a tree in their garden with some ashes below so it would be Mummy’s tree for Brooke. Today I had to ask him as I was so wound up about it. I was so delighted that he had the same thoughts and wants to put decking in the sunniest part of their garden with a lovely flowering shrub or tree beside it.
He also said we could have some ashes for our garden and Jemmas, plus some for Lisa’s plot at the cemetery.
I honestly can’t explain how this has made me feel. I just needed to know that there would be something that would be with Brooke for many years.
Phew!
Love to all dear friends.
Kate xx
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That is lovely news. So pleased for you. Hope you sleep well tonight. Very best wishes and another hug xxx
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Thankyou. I am just glad to get this all off my chest. It’s funny how things can twist our insides until we just have to let go and say what we need to. Jamie is great but I didn’t want to upset him as he is grieving so much too.
Sleep well too dear friend.
Kate xx
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So pleased that went as you wished, Kate. I can imagine how wound up you got wondering what Jamie would say.
Love Ann xx
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I had a mixed day today. My other daughter came over from Leeds to meet me in Manchester, and it was lovely to see her, we are good friends, but the first thing she did was burst into tears because Katherine should have been there too. So then of course I did. It’s the first time we’ve met up like that without Kath, and it sinks in that you will never ever be all together again, never meet up with both your girls 
. At least not in this life. These feelings we all share, just so sad.
Ann xx
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It’s a huge relief tbh. I had been thinking about how to broach the subject with Jamie as he is still so in love, even though our beautiful girl is gone almost 3 years. Its so hard to know what to say when we are all so much in pain still.
To know that he had exactly the same thoughts says a lot about this darling boy.
Much love to you dear friend.
Kate xx
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Oh Ann I am sorry to hear that I totally understand. I will be meeting up with my best friend she is coming from Atlanta and my sister is also coming this weekend she lives about 2 hours away. I am sure there is going to be lots of tears. Of course I want to see them, but, I know when I see both of them I will burst into tears because they were close to Theo and my Sister was with me in the hospital when I had to let Theo go.
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Just an aside, Racy, my son who lives in France used to live in Atlanta and I visited twice. Ann xx
Oh my gosh really Wow…
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Dear friends,
I am just catching up as haven’t been on for a few days, Nell I read your post and my heart breaks for what you are going through, we lost our precious boy in May 2019 and it took 2 and half years for the inquest, due to the fact Matt was in the Army also covid, its such an horrendous time it consumes you and it delays your grief, all I can say is once its over you can move forward with you grief and I pray you won’t have to wait too long. Monday 6th June was 3 years to the day we had Matt’s funeral and we had a beautuful bench placed at his old primary school and the children sang his teachers spoke of him his Army brothers came and it was a celebration of his life 
it was a lovely day, after the inquest last October I said I wanted to focus on positive ways to honour our sons memory and this is just what we did I feel lighter now. Nell please know there will be better days there will be light at the end of this tunnel
Kate I am over the moon for you it’s funny how we stress and stress over things and then it all falls into place, this is our precious children looking out for us, you will be feeling lighter now too now that these decisions have been made, that’s how I feel this gives hope to all our friends on this site Love to all friends old and new
Michelle xxx
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That’s absolutely beautiful. You must miss him so much xxx
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Dear Michelle, Beautiful but heart-breaking ,and though the sadness will always remain you must be so proud of what he was prepared to do for his country. Take care. Marina xxx
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Beautiful. You can be truly proud. Love Ann
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Michelle,
I too haven’t been on here for a while before then posted just a day or so ago, what a beautiful bench and in a place it will be looked after. You can be so proud of Mathew because as he said he was doing his dream job. Not everyone makes it into the Coldstream Guards either, you have without a shadow of a doubt honoured Mathew’s memory in such a positive manner, there is as you say a chink of light at th end of the tunnel and over the years that chink becomes larger. That is down to our children as you say looking out for us.
Take care Michelle
Love Helen
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