Dear Debora, I’m sorry you are not well … I think when we are unwell or at a low ebb we miss our children more and feel the loss more. I hope you feel better soon xxx
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Thank you Maddie and Victoria. I’m feeling a little better xx
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So sorry to hear that you are ill. Yes, when we are not well the grief and yearning seem to be so much worse.
Hope you will feel better soon though. Your girl will be watching over you.
Much love,
Kate xx
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Thank you Kate. I feel her presence quite strongly today.
Love
Deborah 
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Hi Deborah hope your feeling a bit better when ill makes you so down xx
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Dear Deborah,
I am sorry to hear you are not well, but its so nice to hear from you, as its been a while and I was worried about you, we haven’t heard from Anne for a while, have you heard from her lately?
Sending you a big hug 🫂 to help get you through and hope tomorrow is a better day and you feel a bit better take care much love Michelle xxxx
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Hi .its 4 24 been awake all night looking at photos .very sad tonight .went out in the garden to let dog out. Standing there crying and a robin came from nowhere on the fence .i could of reached and touched him i stood for 15 mins he didnt sing didnt move just stared .its still darkish. Im back in bed need to try shut these eyes .hope it was sam saying come on mum stop crying Love to all love zoe
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It sounds to me that Sam knew you needed him this morning Zoe and came to comfort you in the best way he was able. How lovely that the Robin sat beside you for so long. I hope you were able to sleep then.
Love and hugs Sue xxxx
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Hello everyone It’s afternoon for me I hope everyone is having the best day that they can. My day yesterday was about a 7 out of 10 and today so far about the same. Some reprieve I’m going to revel in it while I can.
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7/10 is good. Really pleased it’s a positive. Sending you all the best and you well deserve a bit of light. Sending hug x
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Hi Zoe - just saying hello and thinking of you xxx
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Hi Michelle
Thank you, I am feeling better although not completely recovered. I do read the posts but sometimes it’s just too much to post myself and at times just typing how I am feeling about my daughter brings on the tears. I am going to private message Anne as I haven’t heard from her either. I will let you know.
Deborah xx
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Thank you Nell and how are you doing?
Not a very good day but not one of the worse, so I’m grateful for that.
Sending Jenna, Teddy, Zoe, Ann, Racy and everyone, all of you lovely and grieving people, a thank you for sharing. You’ve helped me even when life is so hard for you. I seem to live with the mantra ‘keep on keeping on’, It’s bloody hard for all of us. I wish none of us were on this journey. Sending kind thoughts xxx
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Thank you Nell. We help each other, and I’m grateful to all you lovely ladies (and Jim!)
Hope you have a better day tomorrow.
Much love to all, Ann xxx
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Yes thanks to you and Jim too x
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Good that’s improvement! Hope tomorrow’s a better or good day for all of us!
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Hello All,
I haven’t posted in a while, I have been being kept busy with all the grandchildren, but even then not once does Sam slip from my mind. I know what you mean Victoria, Kate and all, I always go away before the 9th December usually Cornwall with John and my other friend Janice to a cottage and as you say Victoria the build up is always harder than the day itself. This year will be 6 years since Sam passed but inside it feels like yesterday. In October Sam will be 40 so this year I think it will be harder for me. In September we go to Elounda in Crete with my sister and brother in law as Gloria and Ben lost their son who was 30 in a football accident the year before me. Two young men in the same family.
Love Helen
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I had a bad night and woke up feeling angry. So not a good start to today. Issues with my witness statement still aren’t resolved and if I was my old self I’d be asking lots of questions about how it’s all been handled. But the current me just feels defeated by her death and how every single agency involved in the aftermath has let me and my grandkids down. I don’t expect the inquest will make me feel any better, even if it’s the verdict I’d like. Someone said to me it made her feel worse cos she didn’t want any verdict she wanted her son back. We can’t have them back can we tho. I’m trying to just stop beating myself up about this statement when the big issue is my daughters gone. I have had better moments recently so that’s something to build on. I can’t change the system, and I have to get through the legal stuff so my anger isn’t helping me. It is righteous anger but with nowhere to go. It comes with the territory I’m finding. I’m gonna get out of bed and have a shower and be kind to myself as best I can. It’s a bad day but not everyday will be bad and I’ve had some chinks of light so I know they can happen. Love and hugs to all my fellow travellers in grief. Xx
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Nell, it must be awful for you dealing with all this legal stuff.
Heartbreaking more like. Having all the terror of it all dragged up to the surface again and again. You sound to me to be a very strong person though. Eventually these awful times will be behind you.
Be kind to yourself today and I hope you find the strength you need to deal with all of this.
Much love
Kate xx
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