So sorry for your loss, sending you love and strength to help you through, keep talking on hear as Kate said we are all here to help as we all share this horrendous journey with you xxx
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I hope your op goes well Zoe. My first Christmas without Hol , truly diabolical. I couldnāt bri g myself to put up tree etc, it was just too much . Luckily my son and husband felt the same way. Tommorow we are going to give Hol flowers and then over to my daughterās house with both boys as well as is. Totally different from how we normally celebrate . This is Hol last year and I love this photo
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Dear Hollieās mum, please donāt worry about putting your tree up, sending cards or choosing gifts for people. None of that matters. What matters is that you get through this time of year however you need to. Be kind to yourself, breathe and go easy on yourself.
I havenāt put my Christmas tree up since I lost my daughter and donāt think I ever will. A few years ago a friend gave me a stick tree covered in lights which I put up and keep through the dark days until the end of February. Whatever helps you. Wishing you peace, sending a big hug to you and all the mums and dads missing their children this Christmas 
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I am lighting a candle for my boy, and for everyone here who has lost a precious child.
Sending love and peace this Christmas,
Anneka x
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Thatās lovely have a lovely Christmas.
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Thank you old friends and new im home after surgery thank you for your kind words .this time of year so difficult theres no rules wishing you all peace light love big hugs zoe xxx
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So sorry for your loss, no mother should lose a precious child xx
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Glad you are home, Zoe and wishing you a speedy recovery
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Love to you . Such a brave soul you are.
Inspirational.
So much love coming your way dear girl.
Kate xx
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Iāve held it together all day, Iāve smiled and thanked my beautiful family for making today special. Iāve literally distracted myself endlessly. Now I feel physically battered by the pain of missing her , I really canāt cope for much longer
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Hi i know its a very hard time of year when did you loose your daughter .we try to be brave and hold it together .sometimes its too much .beautiful pic of your daughter .my son also died from a aggressive cancer sarcoma he was gone in 4 months . Its such a wicked world xx
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Thank you for your kind words kate and victoria .hope we all got through the day ok . Much love to all xx
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28 weeks ago, Hollie had additional needs. She fought back from kidney failure in 2016 and had a kidney transplant donated from her dad, her initial symptoms in Feb/March were dismissed as viral, then very anemic , all attributes to her kidney , she had a rare aggressive cancer, we were told initially it was to do with the anti rejection drugs but turned out to be nothing to do with the kidney , eventual diagnosis in 3rd June after 7 weeks in hospital , she died on the 10th June , Iām totally lost without her , ty for replying g and my literal heartfelt sympathy to you on the loss of your son, today has been very hard
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Its so hard this place has always been my life line sam passed in 2021 . This site and the lovely people have kept me going .some very late night chats .its hard to make sense of it all .but baby steps theres no right or wrongs you just go with how you feel. Your brave for getting out of bed in the morning xxx
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These aggressive cancers are so bad.My son had special needs died July 2023 aged 47. Were told the pains in hip and spine were muscular,to rub deep heat in. He had secondary bone cancer,died within 3 months. They need to take more notice when they have other things wrong .
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I absolutely agree with you. I donāt know about your son but Hollie had a very high pain threshold, she was also a ā live for the momentās type person so always liked being very busy. My gut instinct as her mum was there was something majorly wrong but as she presented overly as well my opinion was ā hysteriaā. Tbf the outcome would still have been the same but itās a lesson that needs to be learnt
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My son did also, he fought so many things and never complained. Even when he had pains in his hip and spine , it never stopped him going out .All that he went through ,it never stopped him hoping and laughing.Like you my husband and I miss him so much ,children should never go before their parents no matter what they have wrong with them. Love to you allā:heart:
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We both had absolute warriors for children x with love from my heart to yours x
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I lost my son James 5 months ago following a collapse outside his house. He was 31.
Ive been awake for 3 nights now as i struggle to understand this new life im in. Its so bleak and everyday i feel a little more colour drain from my life.
Its New yearās eve tomorrow and the thought of leaving James in 2024 is just to horrific to think about. I feel like im betraying him as i remain in a world that continues to function without him.
I never knew such pain existed but i feel it everyday, it never leaves me. I loved James effortlessly and i wasnt finished being his mum.
My life is incomplete and fractured and my future looks terrifying, sad and so very long x
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Im so sorry about zoes daughter and the son of the other day. I got through yesterday. I was with my family
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