Yes Zoe, May . Every minute they are in our head aren’t they and I am always thinking of you and your Sam as our worlds fell apart near the same time . Still screaming on the inside and getting the Whack to the body when something hurls a memory , just hope I am dealing with it better now . I am sorry life keeps throwing things at you and your family, you have all been through so much it really isn’t fair . We just have to do the best we can don’t we. I do hope the doctors look after you well and can sort out the horrid side effects of the drugs. Sending much love 🩷XXx🌺
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Hi Jess , thinking off you . So hope you will feel better soon Sending love Maddie xxx
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This really resonates with me. You have hit the nail on the head, thank you for posting x
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MY BEAUTIFUL SAM PASSED AWAY FOUR YEARS TODAY MISS HIM WITH EVERY BEAT OF MY HEART THE KINDEST SOUL OUR SUPERHERO LOVEYOU SAM ALWAYS AND FOREVER 
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It will be six months since my 28 year old son died on the 28th October. He looked a little like your son - a beautiful kind face. We were very close, my other son called him a mummy’s boy - but we didn’t mind we just loved each other. I need to sleep but I seem to be going backwards lately. Taken all the tablets I can but don’t seem to be working. xxxxxx
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My son George died from brain cancer. x
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Dear Helen,
My son died of a brain tumour on 28th October 2024 we had almost three years as things got progressively worse. He had an astrocytoma, which was diffused. Right from the off we were told incurable, inoperable. We searched out all sorts of things including immunotherapy in Germany - travelling backwards and forwards each month. Brain tumours are evil - taking the young and being one of the least invested in cancers. I miss him but cannot be that sad person who is stuck - (but look at me now 3.12am and not asleep… ) I need to get out and about otherwise I truly think I would go mad. I apologise to George for ‘moving on’. He was a very kind person and I know that he wouldn’t want us to put our lives on hold forever. x
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Dear Zoe ,thinking of you and your family on this Sams anniversary . I so feel your pain . Sending love and hugs . Maddie xxxxx
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Thank you maddie .so hard as we know. Life goes on . We all wear a mask dont we .i feel numb its a wierd feeling sam passed on my mums birthday she passed in 2018 …
Ali i know that feeling im awake most nights .thars my hardest time sam was 24 when he oassed he had sarcoma a rare cancer he lasted 4 months he was so brave xxx
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Yes Zoe , we do wear a mask , we try and show people we are ok as they really don’t want to hear . but inside we are dying and in pain I try and put to the back of my mind , but if I sit down or think about it when I get in bed , that’s it I will start to cry and everything comes rushing back . And then there is Sarah , she is in remission she looks good and feels good although she gets tired really quickly . I find is the same as losing Dawn , I try and shut it out , but I know deep down she is so worried it might raise its ugly head again . When we talk she says mum
you can say the word Cancer . , but I can’t in fear of upsetting her . Zoe I hope you have coped today , let’s face it you have had so much to deal with . Sending you the best of health , stay strong . Love Maddie xxxx
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I think in a way our lives stopped the day we lost our children and I think of everything now as before or after I lost Gemma.
I do try not to be sad in front of my family as I don’t want our lives to be just about sadness and anxiety misery but some days are easier than others x
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I agree Victoria P, I measure everything in before and after. I’m not the same person, how can any of us be the same? Huge chunk of my life has disappeared. As Hollie had additional needs I was so involved in her life, we got the news of a mass a year ago yesterday and she died on the 10th June last year. Right from the start I had the feeling that it would be far far more serious than consultants first said, I knew my daughter’s body as well as I know my own.
I miss the joy, the fun, the absolute love of life she had, I miss her saying ’ ello mymum’ when she got home. I miss hugs from her.
I honestly believe the reason I keep going is to acknowledge my grief, it’s as intense as the love I had for her, all consuming some days.
I have 3 other grown up children. They and my brilliant husband deserve me to do the very best I can for them and I’m grateful to have that. How I wish my Hollie was still here tho , my favourite photo of the two of us xx
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Thank you ladies for your support as always. Yes had my mask on all day but when alone in the night i let nt true feelings go . This is the worst thing that can happen our babies shouldnt go before us . Sending you big hugs and support as always xxxx
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Michelle. Thinking of you todsy and sending love to you and your family.
You are always in my thoughts.
Kate xxxx
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