I know sam and those weeks will fly by. With every passing week they get further away from us.
How have you been since the funeral?
Cheryl x
So familiar Daffy
At the old house we had a very small kitchen, moving to this house it is a much larger kitchen and mum loved sitting at the table in the kitchen. Every time I go into the kitchen I look over and imagine mum sitting at the table in her chair.
Rubbish. If anything it’s getting harder. I still can not believe that this has happened to us. Our little bubble burst forever. I just miss him so so much and everything that our lives were. I wish I’d realised how lucky and happy we were x
I agree Sam. I think we all take life and loved ones for granted but I think that is just life. It is not until something like this happens that you really realise what you had and how good it was. I want my old life back but I know it is not possible.
The thing is Barrie and sam - I had already lost my dad suddenly 21 years ago so it’s not like it hasnt happened to me before.
I should know how precious life is, but my mum always looked so well.
She never even caught colds when the rest of the house were suffering them.
I think it’s just life. It doesnt stop me arguing with my partner or telling my daughter off
I dont think, oh they may not be here tomorrow because life isnt like that x
So true. I think we all just didn’t see it coming x
Likewise, I lost Dad twenty years previously.
It perhaps be an uncomfortable life, if we lived our lives thinking that our loved ones could pass away at anytime.
Half an hour ago i went looking for photos of flowers from the garden. Of course, I came across photos of Mum, which resulted in tears. How can she not be here anymore?
It’s going to take a long time to even comprehend that she has really gone.
I didn’t see it coming and nor did my Mum.
I’ve learned my lesson. I will learn to live well and try not to get overly-stressed anymore by the things that don’t matter. I no longer loose my temper quite so quickly.
It’s a great shame we can’t turn back the clock.
Yeah if only we can turn back time. It is nice to be able to chat on here and for each of us to understand where each of us are coming from, I truly believe now that unless you have lost someone very close (a parent) no one else fully understands, they can try and help but they cannot understand what each of us are going through.
Dont you daffy?
I find that my patience is thin, I get even more stressed than I did before.
I worry permanently and would live to think why? Little things dont matter but I cant.
Ive never felt more miserable than I do tonight.
I felt better 3 or 4 months ago.
Cheryl, I’m sorry to hear that you are having a very bad night.
The changes in me are shocking. My nerves are terrible. I’m certainly not coping. I’m very happy to stay at home and hide away. x
I think it’s the shock in the beginning which numbs you slightly from feeling all your emotions then total disbelief sets in. It maybe your feeling worse now because reality is starting to set in and emotions are fully switched back on. Let’s hope for a better today tomorrow x
Hi everyone how are you all today. 6 weeks today so has been extremely difficult. Had a complete episode in the car my god it’s really true and it’s really happened x
I still have those sam. You think I would be used to it by now wouldn’t you?
Not in the car but anywhere. Sitting at home, work, eating dinner , in the bath.
It’s horrible when you realise you are living life without them isnt it.
I never used to make a hit drink without asking if mum wanted one. I dont even think about it anymore. Just get on with making it.
I find it hard my life is moving on without her.
X
I took the in laws out today for lunch and burst into tears at the dinner table. I hate crying in front of people at the best of times. I’ve kept it together for a few days whilst they have been staying with us. But it just reinforces to me that I don’t have a mum and I can’t take her to the places I have been taking my mother in law.
I know joules. One of my cousins just sent me some photos of mum that she came across today. I wanted to say, I dont do photos. Her dad, my mums eldest brother died a year before mum but he was 87 and ready to go.
She just says to me, think of all the good times cheryl
Yes thanks
Some people just don’t understand do they. Try not to let it hurt you. You know how you feel and don’t need to justify that to anyone. I don’t know if you ever get used to it. Or if you do I just can’t see it yet. Living you worse nightmare daily isn’t it x
Oh don’t you love well meaning comments. I get told I need to think positively and still get asked “what’s wrong” if I’m down or tearful. It really really pisses me off.
Exactly sam it is x
There has been a few people I would gladly punch in the face of I could 
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Hi how is everyone doing? x