Hello @Tonnusonnu,
I’m sorry to hear about your gran. It must have been especially hard to lose her just before your son was born and without being able to say goodbye.
You are not alone - many of our members have experienced the loss of a grandparent and will understand some of what you’re going through. @Broken23 started this thread recently - maybe you can connect with each other?
We have a support page for coping with the loss of a grandparent, if you would like to read it.
I hope you find the community to be a support to you - please keep reaching out.
Take care
Seaneen