Do you know I thought the same?
I taught in the morning and going to teach now - went for a massage and met a friend at 5 pm - we had a glass ( maybe 2) of wine and then I came to teach ! Shouldn’t have done that but it feels good
What sort of day have you had?
Sadie xx
Sorry Romy, been having multiple meltdowns so thought best to stay off the forum until they subsided.
Really hope you’re ok love.
Blessings
Jen☆
Well I had the pleasure of meeting Sandra in Inverness on her Scottish holiday. She is a lovely lady and we shared a couple of hours talking about our husbands and shed a tear or two. It was lovely to meet you Sandra and I hope we can do it again.
Love Jacqi xx
It’s horrible when you get caught out by grief that you can’t do anything about but have a good cry. Hope you are feeling OK now Jen. xx
How wonderful you had an opportunity to meet!! Really lovely
Sadie x
Sheila mane we should organise a meeting! It is interesting isn’t it we open our selves to each other we in many ways know each other well … now all we need is to meet up
Sadie xx
Sheila, I doubt if many of us will ever “get over it” and I think it’s actually getting worse not better. That little moment in time 9 months ago today and suddenly everything changed, nothing will ever be the same again. When people say I have to “build a new life”, I feel like hitting them because I don’t want a new life, I want the old one back.
Love xx
Hi. I agree. I seem to be getting worse instead of better. I went to the doctors yesterday and while sitting in the waiting room I was looking at the chair where John sat on the first day he felt unwell. I realised it was 6 months to the day that he last sat there before our lives changed forever. I burst into tears and have been crying non stop since. I too have been told I should move on and start enjoying my life again. How can I when the only person I ever wanted to be with has gone xxx
Dear Jacqi I had a lovely time meeting you today. and the pleasure was all mine.
I just wish we’d had more time.
We have to do it again, so much in common and so much to say about our lovely husbands,
Off home tomorrow, back again soon
Love Sandra xx
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Youre so right ladies. We ll never get over it,
How can we? After all those years with our loved ones by our side and then snatched away from us.
Its impossible to recover from that.
Its like having your heart torn in two and one half taken from you.
I have missed Phil so much this week as always but returning to his favourite places. was difficult.
Its been nice with my family but the one person I wanted beside me wasnt there.
.
Ive been ok during the day plenty of distraction but once I close the bedroom door at night amd I can talk to him again thats when I start crying. Telling him about my day is what I do every day.
This week Ive waited for bedtime.
I dont talk to him with other people around
They wouldnt understand.
I do speak sbout him all of the time to whoever will listen. tho. lol
Love Sandra xx
Dear Sadie
Absolutely knackering
Lots on in work and at home
Very envious of someone in work going off for the weekend with their partner . Just made me feel sick to be honest that I can’t even see my husband let alone spend time away with him anywhere like we used to . What a rubbish thought . It’s hard to put a positive spin on stuff isn’t it ?
Love you lots
Romy xxxxx
Dear Sadie
Absolutely knackering
Lots on in work and at home
Very envious of someone in work going off for the weekend with their partner . Just made me feel sick to be honest that I can’t even see my husband let alone spend time away with him anywhere like we used to . What a rubbish thought . It’s hard to put a positive spin on stuff isn’t it ?
Love you lots
Romy xxxxx
Dear Romy
It is exhausting to be positive, but also it is exhausting to be negative!
Sometimes I feel that I am living someone else’s life because this life is also exhausting!!
Sadie x
Dear Jen
Multiple meltdowns ?
Are you ok now or still feeling really rubbish ?
Love Romy xxxxx
That’s fab xxxx
Dear Sadie
I feel the same . Like it is someone else’s life I am living now
I so much want to feel a bit better …a bit more grateful for the life I’ve got left to live but I just can’t find it in me . Don’t get me wrong . I’m not grumpy . I don’t go around looking miserable and being horrible to people or anything but the joy has gone . The looking forward to stuff has gone . I feel as flat as a pancake …
My friend who has cancer has told me just now too that the doctors have suggested she go into a hospice so she is desperately upset …and so am I for her and her family
I feel guilty then for not being more grateful for my own health when she is battling for her life but because of the sudden loss of my husband nothing makes sense to me any more . Not his death . Not her illness . It’s all so random and cruel . I feel like my husband has gone before his time and he was 60 and my poor , poor friend is only 47 .
Life should come with a health warning to make the most of it because nobody knows what’s round the corner and it can all change or even be over in an instant
Romy xxx
I’ve felt ever since Iain went away that he had taken 1/2 of me with him and it was the best half, the half that smiled and laughed and was confident and went out to do things and see people and that it will never be like that again as I feel like a zombie walking with but not with other people.
That’s exactly it Romy.
Dear Romy
So sorry about your friend
I do understand what you say because with me is the same - I meet friends, see my grand children , etc but I have no joy. I enjoy their company but my heart doesn’t feel all fluffy warm and pink…
A few days ago I posted something written by someone that deals a lot with grief - and what we are feeling is just the way it is , it takes time and says that after a while we will reconnect with live
Wait and see
A big hug
Xx
Hug for you Cassie, I think you need a few xxx
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