I’m still here thanks but a horrible week to come starting Monday because I’m going to chapel of rest to see Daniel then on Wednesday it’s daniel’s funeral
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Yes a hard time i went everyday to see kyle but it still doesnt feel real. Just a message away will be thinking of you
Thinking of you today Mark x
Just a message to Mark to say I’m thinking of you and will light a candle for your Daniel, my Daniel and for Carla’s boy Kyle on Wednesday. I know how hard this week will be and we are all here for you, sending love and prayers xxx
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Thank you Julia x hope you are doing ok Mark x
I went to see Daniel today and it has destroyed me but I did get the chance to tell Daniel how much I love him and will miss him every day for the rest of my life I just wish I’d told him I loved him when he was still with me but that will just have to go on the list of regrets.
My 11 year old who was very close to Daniel left Daniel a picture he did for him when he was 4 Isaac always used to draw pictures for Daniel and he kept them all.
I still can’t believe I will never see Daniel every again I’m absolutely hear broken life is really cruel it really is.
I don’t even know if going to see Daniel has helped in anyway mind to be honest I don’t know anything at the moment only pain.
I went everyday to see kyle thinking it would ease him leaving but you arent alone it hasnt helped me either, i still dont believe this and am still feeling like its day1. After talking to other grieving patents we are still at a very raw point it is so early for us so i am trying to now cope by taking each day, hour, minute 
today is a bad day started at 3am with the anxiety attack 
sending you lots of strength x
It’s Daniel’s funeral today at 8.50 and I’m already sat here crying my eyes out I would like to just run away from it all but I know I can’t I just wish I could stop crying but I can’t I can’t even talk without braking down.
I am thinking of you and sending you strength x
I am thinking of you too Mark today and your family .It will be hard no question but you will get through it.We parents who have lost a child totally understand what you will be feeling today .Best wishes and all my love xxxxx
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I’m back home now and really hurting, some people say they feel better after the funeral well not me I feel lost and very very sad yes it brings it all home my Daniel is gone forever and no more walks and exploring places together ever and no more dad can you have a look at my car it’s not working properly, sad isn’t the word for what’s going round in my mind I just don’t know how to cope anymore
Mark glad you got through funeral.Its far too early to feel any better.10 months since I lost my only son the pain continues to be unbearable.Like you I miss every little thing about him and the thought of never seeing him again I have no words to explain that feeling.You will know that feeling but your life will go on but in a totally different way it has to you have fa
mily.I cant really give you any comforting words just get up each day and take it from there.Thats all I do .They say time is a healer its not you just have to learn to live with your grief Take care .
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I’ve been thinking about you all morning Mark. There are just no words to describe the feelings are there? I felt stripped down to nothing on the day we said Goodbye to my Daniel - looking back, it’s as if I wasn’t there at all - just putting on the show of a lifetime to try and give him the best send off that I could. I feel your pain this morning and agree that no, it doesn’t get better once the funeral is over. It is still very early days for you and I’m sure others have said to take one hour at a time - and one day at a time. It’s so true - I am doing that now after five months of running away from my heartbreak. We are all here for you and sending love xxx
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Wish I could stop crying but I cannot I can’t even talk to anyone about anything without braking down in tears I’m truly lost.
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No it doesnt get easier, i am completely lost like the funeral never happened i feel like it was ages ago that i was at the chapel and it was 7weeks ago and 3 weeks ago Kyles funeral. I am lost still and cry everyday, i expected it to get better too Mark but it hasnt i think people are expecting me to go back to work now but i really can’t. I am so anxious and just cry at random times over nothing x thinking of you all thank you all for talking it really does help.
Carla I know exactly what you mean I to just burst out crying all the time and it’s getting very embarrassing because it even happens when I’m in the shops
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Yes i went out today for first time on my own to tesco and it was full of anxiety and panic by the time i got back to the car 
its horrendous and then the pain comes and you feel it taking over and hurting you from the stomach x taking each minute and hour is all i can do at the moment and you are the same we are broken and this pain is unbearable 
I was in Tesco today when it happened to me, I see no point in life anymore no happiness nothing.
Mark you have other children ? X and a partner ? X
Yes 7 other children and a wife but my marriage ended 4 years ago but we still live in the same house as to be there for are children but we don’t really talk.