Hi lizb,
I’m so sorry to hear about your son, it sounds like it was a terrible shock and that things are very tough for you right now.
There are a few parents active on this site who find some comfort in sharing how they’re feeling, if you’d like you could read through some of their posts or even introduce yourself here >
Sue Ryder offers an online bereavement counselling service. This is a free service and sessions are held via video chat so you can attend from home. There’s more information about this service here: www.sueryder.org/counselling.
You deserve this support, keep reaching out.
Take care,
Hazel
Online Community Team