Mia it’s a bit unkind for others to tell you to toughen up. No one knows what this is like until they’ve experienced this loss themselves. Please don’t feel guilty about enjoying a lunch or something. I felt guilty about things too but then there have been days when I just cried. You have to have sometimes or doing something
Thankyou woolly You are so right about everyone saying what we should be doing and thinking Being truthful going for a lunch etc their just trying to get me out house Also ive lost nearly 3 stone now at size 8 ??? My son i went with 1st and we had a bite to eat then back to car and i cried ( just knowing my husband his dad ) would never do this again Honestly we now think everything that we wouldn’t have thought of I think we torment ourselves but can’t help it Im now trying hard but ive lost half of me since i ws 15 I would be telling others you’ll be ok so im trying to tell myself now 
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So sorry everyone for your losses. I am 9 weeks in after my beloved partner passed away suddenly while we on holiday. I feel completely lost and lonely and still can’t believe this has happened.
Please keep posting on this site. Everyone understands and no one judges. It’s been a lifeline for me.
Sending love and strength to you all xx
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So sorry for everyone. It is 28 months for me and I still can’t believe it happened. I try and meet up with people but it is not on a regular basis so spend a lot of time on my own. We do what we can when we can and no one knows what it is like until it happens to them. Hugs to all.X
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I am 56 I lost my husband 10 weeks ago suddenly to heart attack , I hate him not being here miss him so much , don’t feel I will ever get over him x
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I’m new to this site. Lost my wife to cancer just before Christmas 23. Although we knew the day would come for three years as the disease got worse, it still never prepares you. Not a day passes without a real sense of loss and loneliness. As others have said some days are better than others. Its reassuring to know you are not alone on feeling this way. We were married for 35 years, 36 years next month. Anyway, it helps to type about it.
I’m so sorry for your loss
Please be sure that on here you’ll get nothing but understanding and support.
We’re all in the same boat and at different stages of this horrendous journey.
I’m 18 weeks in and I was with my husband for 42 years. Its almost broken me but I promised him I’d be ok so I am really trying to do just that.
But it’s so so hard.
Sending you a big hug
Liz x
Mickey5 welcome. I found it reassuring that it wasn’t just me who felt completely lost and lonely and I am only 9 weeks in. Posting on this site and reading others experiences has helped me enormously. Please keep posting. Everyone genuinely understands your feelings and there is always someone to provide support in these dark days without judging you. Take care xx
Thank you for your comments, really appreciated.
Yes its so hard. You dont realise how hard until you are there. And there are no “dry runs” for this event in life.
Hi there ,Im the same as you lost my husband 23rd December suddenly to aortic aneurysm He ws only 57yrs We were together 40yrs and anniversary ws last weekend 22nd June would have been 33yrs This nightmare we’re all dealing with now is so hard and feels like getting harder You will get through this date like every other 1 we have too I sat with a bottle of wine and kept saying CHEERS then cried We all just have to do what we need to at the time Feeling crap again as he passed Friday/Saturday but truthful its always hard As i keep getting told do what you need to thats all we can But its bloody hard Take Care x
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Welcome to the club that nobody wants to qualify for. But everyone here understands your pain and will offer support with no judgement whenever they can.
Losing someone you love is a hell that nobody can even begin to imagine. You also lose your future.
Only 5 weeks for me, so I am still reeling but I have found this site helpful and hope you do as well.
Xx
Mickey5 it’s really hard isn’t it. I agree this site is helping me. Knowing that others feel the same helps me feel less alone. We are trying to keep each other afloat.
Nothing prepares you for the situation we’re now in and unless you’ve suffered this loss you have no idea how devastating it is. Take care all
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I lost my soulmate now I feel so alone
Me too Pam. And it’s not getting any easier. Feeling very lost without him and difficult to imagine any kind of future. I completely understand how you are feeling tonight.
Sending a big hug 
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I get told that “do what you need to to get you through it” ? But Nick is never coming back ? So what I just have to “do what ever I need to forever ?” Nick had a heart attack suddenly and died 15/4/24 , I asked the question on here is it best to know someone is going to die , or for it to happen suddenly? And TBH the result is still the same isn’t it ? I have the thought of 30/40 years of life left without him that’s the point I struggle with , x
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Good morning Jane. You are absolutely spot on. I lost my beloved partner suddenly on 21/4 and he was literally here one minute and gone the next. I tend to think that had he been ill in some way previously, that my brain might have had chance to consider the possibility of him going. However from reading others posts in that position on here, they are all similarly bereft.
Whichever way they passed away the stark reality is they are not coming back. At 62 I have the possibility of another 20 years on my own and the thought is terrifying . I hate my life now. Everything seems pointless and everyone has gone back to their own lives.
We spent nearly all of our time together, just the two of us. It’s not that we weren’t sociable but we just preferred to be the two of us.
What do we do? I am trying to take it hour by hour, day be day but that’s a lot of days!
I’m just hoping time will help us build around the grief but to be honest I’m not really interested. I just want him back.
Hoping today is easier. xx
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PS Jane I think you said you were returning to work? How’s that going? xx
Morning Jody it’s so so difficult, I’m the same as you, we spent all our time with each other just the way we wanted it.I think about the silly things like if I get ill who would visit me now I’ve lost my husband? I know it hasn’t hit me yet he’s gone because he was in hospital for 6 weeks I know my mind is just saying he’s still in hospital I’m scared of when it does finally hit me,
Being able to speak on here does help, I hope you feel the same because we are all here for each other xx
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Good Morning Cookie I have exactly the same fears as you- what would happen if I was ill, who would visit me, who would care!
I really value this site as you can articulate your thoughts and fears and everyone understands. And it’s comforting to know that most of us are worrying about the same things and you are not actually losing the plot.
Sending you a big hug xx
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I just wanted to signpost you to a post on ‘a year and a half later’ subject posted by Ali29 this morning.
It is her account of being 18 months down the line and it is the most positive thing I have read for a while
Sorry I’m not sure how to link it to this post so hope you can find it. I found it inspirational. Hope you do too x