I also lost my Husband 5 weeks ago to cruel cancer, we have had the funeral and I was kept busy but now feeling empty and miss him so much . Feel angry , sad , devastated , miss him so much
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Yes it’s after the funeral it hits you when you’re not so busy organising things. The day just drags on and seems so pointless. I keep finding things to do but then feel I wish he was here doing them with me.
Yes that was Nick and I , we preferred each other’s company than that of others , we loved the lock down I know people struggled but for us spending 7days a week 24 hours a day was bliss , Nick was 9 years older than me I am 56 he was 65. Yes again not that we didn’t like other people just preferred doing things together , now I realise that has made it harder for me , next week we were going to Hampton Court garden festival, we did it two years ago , we did Chelsea last year , my son is going to come with me although not interested in gardening etc , Nick had bought me the “floral “ dress to wear for it , and converse with flowers on them ! So I will wear it and I will go , just so wish it was with him as planned , we even had things for 2025 booked we enjoyed planning ahead together, him dying just was not planned x
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I’m going through the same thing at the minute… my husband passed away in March sudden cardiac arrest. No heart problems previously. Can I ask did you husband have the Covid injection. I’m hearing lots of stories from Cardiac drs they’ve never seen so many heathy people with heart problems since Covid.
My husband was 50 with no heart problems… I’m really struggling.
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My husband had a previous heart attack 23 years earlier in his early 40’s he didn’t need any operation or anything and he was awake and aware through that heart attack he was put on statins , aspirins etc and had regular check ups and yes he was classed as the vulnerable group for covid vaccine so had his first ! We all had them , however as of late I am experiencing a lot of young deaths my cousin age 56 , learning dis so he had his covid early , man at work diabetic age 66 he was also one to have his covid injection early etc now they havnt all had cardiac arrest BUT it has made me think too ?? X
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Kell so very sorry for your loss. It’s 10 weeks today since my partner passed away suddenly.
We too had heard and know of seemingly healthy people who have suffered heart problems since their Covid injections, although not of anyone passing away suddenly. In fact my partner refused the offer of having the most recent dose.
It is such early days for you and everything is raw. You will be trying to understand why this has happened. Please just take it hour by hour and try to look after yourself. Sending love and strength xx
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I am sorry for your loss, I also lost my husband to cruel cancer 5 weeks ago , we were told last year that is was incurable but the chemo got it under control and then it grew again . Although they say you shou be prepared you never are . We were together for 37 years and he fought to the end he passed just before my 70th birthday . I am not sure when the rawness will end but sending over hugs to you . x
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Just reading all these posts and realising the similarities that run through them.
My husband died at 56, 3 months ago of a rare and very aggressive cancer. He was fit, healthy, exercised regularly, didn’t smoke or drink to excess. His younger brother died 2 years ago, again fit and healthy, from a brain tumour. No family history of young deaths in there past. Their dad is still alive in his late 80s.
I also wonder about others I know dying young of cancer and why this is happening. A bit like others concerns around Covid. But I try not to go there as there’s no answer that will help me now.
I do also like others here worry a lot about how I will cope for the next 30+ years maybe without him, as I am only 52. And how I will manage when my youngest child moves out in a couple of years if she still wants to go to Uni ( which I want her to do ).
@Jane15 well done in going to your garden show - it will be hard I’m sure but I hope you can feel a sense of closeness to him when you are there.
We also had lots of things booked for this year - mainly concerts, and holidays - we had no idea that he wouldn’t be here when we booked them.
I have missed some as they were just going to be too hard ( should have been at Pink in Glasgow last night who we both loved ) but am planning to go to others.
Hopefully time will make this agony melt away a bit and we can all move forwards and learn to manage the sadness and find some joy in our lives. Xxx
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Hi Roni so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband nearly 3 weeks ago and it’s the funeral this week, he has a very rare form of cancer which was inoperable but it was being kept at bay with chemo etc he had just turned 52 and I’m 51 the thought of living without him is so painful, we also had lots of things booked for this year.
I hope you keep in touch as it does bring comfort knowing your not alone going through this 
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Oh @Cookie1973 I’m so sorry you are also here in this awful position. They were so young weren’t they and I know I was so unprepared for this happening, even when his brother died at 52.
We knew then how precious life was and were living it to the full in his memory, never thinking we would be in the same position. Or I would be here now.
Life is so unfair.
Be kind to yourself especially when you have the funeral this week. It will be hard but lean on those who offer to support you and do whatever is right for you.
And keep in touch here - it has been so helpful to me knowing I’m not alone and having somewhere to turn to where people really do understand.
Sending a big hug and strength for this week 
xx
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