Lost the love of my life

Losing a partner
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Thank you xxx

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I just don’t think I can do this much longer. I can’t believe I had this wonderful life and this wonderful husband and now it’s gone. I went through a year and a half of cancer treatment and I couldn’t have done it without my husband. And even with everything I went through none of it made me more sad or scared than I am now. I think back on how this time last year I was going through chemo and was admitted into hospital with neutropenic sepsis and though that was awful I knew I had him to go home to and would do all again just to have him. It’s not fair. Xx

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Bless your heart it is such early days for you I am 10 months in yes the pain and tears are there most days because like you I had the most amazing husband we were inseparable until covid came along please please anyone who doesn’t understand your grief forget about them you don’t need people like that in your life you need people to love and support you no matter what sort of day your having take care x

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Thank you :kissing_heart::kissing_heart:

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Why do people say once you’ve had the first of every think things get easier

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For me the firsts continue. We have a new grandson - born after my husband died - and this will be his first Christmas and then his first birthday next year. I can’t see it getting easier. I have to look at the pain on our kids faces and the heartbreak just continues.

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I know love congratulations on your grandchild
You will make there Christmas special

Sorry hear about your husband

I think people just think once you’ve had first bday first anniversary things get easier but they don’t
Some people/family just don’t understand the pain I feel hate seeing the kids I pain to luv

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I think some people say that to comfort us knowing deep inside it’s not true i think it just gives us another year to learn how to live with the loss of our loved ones x

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Thanks for listening I was feeling really down the other day but seeing support for you lovely people helped me though
I’m back in work this week

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Hi jenW how are you I hope you have had a better couple of days every day is so different x I’m hoping and praying for some sleep tonight had 3 hrs last night woke at 3am and that was it so feeling exhausted :zzz:

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Hi ocean village 608. I go from being able to breath and maybe hoover or throw some washing in the machine to absolute despair and uncontrollable crying and just wanting to go to sleep and not wake up again. If you are having trouble sleeping could you ask your doctor for some sleeping pills? I find they do help. I still wake up around 2/3am but it helps me fall asleep and gives me a few hours. Xxx

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Having another bad evening. It doesn’t get any easier. Each day it gets harder. I can’t believe I don’t have him anymore. What makes it worse is that this was absolutely the fault of the nhs and medication being recorded incorrectly or not at all and and that vital information was not given to him about his medication. This directly caused his death. He didn’t need to die . He shouldn’t have died. This was preventable. Obviously I have file a complaint. I know it’s not going to bring him back but I have to fight his corner for him. I cannot let someone get away with manslaughter. That’s how I feel that this is nothing less than manslaughter.

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Emotions on high today my beautiful mums birthday today, wishing she was her to help me though my tough days miss her so much to may people gone feel alone
Glad I’ve got my kids to get me thou each day

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I have also had dreadful day somehow I missed the last 2 stairs and smashed to the floor heard the terrible snap of my bones screamed for my son got me to AE reception gave all my details then was asked who’s your next of kin it was like being hit with a sledge hammer that was more painful than the fall I just stared at the lady then burst into hysterical crying :cry: the poor lady my daughter was with me so between her tears she told the lady she was now my next of kin it was another thing that I hadn’t even thought about because for the last 40 years it was my Paul so now I’m in plaster for 6 weeks broke 2 bones in foot not allowed to weight bear on it at all so that’s gonna be fun in the lead up to Christmas x

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So sorry luv hope you’re ok
My heart goes out to you x

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THANKYOU hope you are doing ok and coping the grief is far more painful than my 2 broken bones they will mend but my heart will never ever heal :broken_heart: x

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I know the feeling luv people say time is a great healer but it’s not hearts that are broken can’t be fixed

My emotions on high today don’t know y I’m out walking the dog and just keep crying

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You are so right our hearts will never be healed :broken_heart: hope you have a better day tomorrow x I really struggle with the fact that we are not in control of our tears and hearts it comes in such a wave with no control button at all x

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It’s so hard xx my husband died last December, he was
54.
Our son is 15 now and this year has been a mish mash of emotions and some nice times.
It’s amazing how we find the ability to wake up and carry on each day isn’t it?
I work 4 days a week 9 - 3pm, with weekends and school holidays off.
It’s good to come on these boards and find others who understand what we all feel :heart:

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Hi my husband passed January he was 60 I don’t know how i have got through these last months most of them since jan I can’t even remember the grief was so unbearable I work 2 days a week which has been a massive help unfortunately I have just broke 2 bones in my foot so am now stuck at home and dreading it as so many memories around me and the realisation Paul is not here never ever realised grief could be so painful will it ever get a little better💔

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