Aww it’s never too hot for me Steph love it i do it’s makes me want to drink cocktails n float around the pool in my flamingo inflatable 
I love this Ian, the words are so true.
Thank you,
Mary x
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thank you Mary and Steph.found it the other day,thought they were beautiful words.so stole them 
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just found another little card sent to me from my baby Jayne ,must of been around 2002
I always felt that Jayne loved me loads,and as I loved Jayne it was a wonderful relationship.
missing you loads my baby Jayne.xxxxxx
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I remember going to Alton Towers in june 1991,very happy times with my baby Jayne,
dont usually buy the photos taken by the intsa camera as you slide down the log flume.
But very glad we did ,as not got any other pictures from the first few years together,
strange really as I had a camcorder ,but Jayne didn’t want be on it.
think I knew were the camera was ,bit of of pose for the picture,were as Jayne is just very happy and screaming as the log flume descended into the water and caused a might splash,yes we got wet grrrrrrrrrrr. like lots of couples we went Alton towers several times especially in the early years of our relationship.If only we could wind the clock back 25 years or so.If only.Missing Jayne like crazy but living with her in my heart mind and soul.all my love to you Jayney xxxxx
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Such a happy photo Ian. Cherish the memories 
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thank you very much Kate.
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was my birthday Friday,and ive been looking through the cards id received from my baby Jayne over the years.
Jayne always picked cards for the words,whilst reading these words I can feel the love Jayne had and shared with me.there wont be a day goes by when my baby Jayne wont be to the fore front of my thoughts.i love you Jayne and always will.
hopefully will be with you when I leave this mortal coil.
all my love always ian xxxxxx
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Beautiful Ian. I hope you stood that card up in pride of place yesterday. 
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thank you Kate.
ive got every card my baby Jayne ever gave me,birthday,christmas,valantines,get well soon,and little cards Jayne sent me from work in the week with little messages on.
every word Jayne wrote means the world to me.
and all the time I have left on this planet ,my heart will be full of love for my baby Jayne,because she was and his my world.
and I know that Jayne would thank some very wonderful caring people on this site who have given me the hand of friendship,and given me an ear to listen and a voice to offer comfort and support .me im very thank ful and appreciate all the comfort and help.
thank you xxx
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whilst lying on my bed,im just talking to Jayne,wishing she was here so we could snuggle.
ive lost track of the times ,as Jayne was standing near me she would grab me for a cuddle.
nothing makes you feel as special as getting a warm hearted cuddle from the love of your life.
thank you my baby Jayne for all those cuddles.all my love forever and a day ian xxxxxx
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first and only time using my mobile to post a picture iAdele if u follow the instructions i messaged you in private.it should work for you.
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Hi I loved reading your post You had a lovely life together and I am so glad that you can look back on your happy times. I know Brixham very well, it’s a lovely little place. I am glad that my darling and I spent any saved money on experiences rather than material items. We travelled abroad and had many wonderful times. I am afraid that I am someti m as bitter that he died in his early sixties we should have had more time. Your Maybe sound like a lovely lady.
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Thankyou Ian im trying thankyou again and beautiful teddies there
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decided put a framed picture and another teddy in the group of special teds in my bed,
and a card from my baby Jayne,yes i felt loved very much by Jayne.
and from now till i leave this mortal coil Jayne will be in my heart.
and the generous things i do are because my baby Jayne is guiding me.
Jayne i love you and you will forever own my heart.it will be eternally yours.
all my love Ian XXXX
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Ian, I think Jayne was as lucky to have you as you were to have her.
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Having been off this site for 4 years,
I returned, I needed to show that i managed to complete my
task, To show how much i love and miss Jayne.
After eventually losing the 2 stone i needed to be on weight
to partake in the tandem skydive, [Id already paid the deposit
in 2020 as i needed that carrot in place] So in Feb around Jaynes birthday
i paid the remaining amount and book the date for the skydive.
I really wanted 24th May as that would of been the anniversary of
Jayne and me first becoming a couple, But i wanted it to be on a weekend
because i was reliant on my friend Rachael who said she would drive me to Salisbury for the jump. So all was set to do the jump on the 28th May 2022
just over 3 years since losing Jayne.
Because skydiving is reliant on the weather , I booked an hotel from Friday evening to Sunday. So if the jump was cancelled i could do it on the Sunday.
Oh id arranged to do said jump with a friend Mark, He went with his girlfriend Donna. We arrived on the Friday, Weres as Mark arrived the Saturday and we arrange meet on the day . The jump was supposed to be 2pmish,
I arrived with my friend Rachael about 1.30pm. And a friend id made from my first year as a member on Sue Ryder Kate had made the journey from Shrewsbury . I wasnt there for a bucket list or to have an exciting day out.
Pure and simple to do something way out of my comfort zone, To show how much i love and miss Jayne. I wasnt anxious or scared. I was somewhat irked when going through the induction as it was stated that people doing the jump were either their for a charity jump and to have a fun experience or to fullfill a bucket wish, I had trouble explaining to several people that i aint in a happy place and im not going be jumping from the rafter with excitement once id fullfilled my task. And i wouldnt be looking back and seeing this as a happy occasion. its a sad occasion that was only thought of because id lost my one true love, No way on earth would i of ever done this under any other circumstances. We had to show we could lift our legs when going through the induction, At this point we had already been fitted with he gear necessary for the tandem skydive i struggled as my back was iffy, But no way was i pulling out, Oh id had to pay privately to get a medical as i have asthma and high blood pressure and nope i didnt mention my back when going through the medical. Any way its obvious i passed or i wouldnt be in Salisbury lol. All those doing the skydive had to go on a little mini bus together with the professional sky divers, Across the field to the plane.
As ive said no anxiety or nerves simply walked and got on the plane i was second on, And the professional skydive i was attached to was Chaz,
I recall asking Chaz how many jumps he had done he said its his first jump.
It went over my head. As then he saughed as if i should of been questioning him saying its his first jump. Thenhe went onto say its over 1000s od skydives hes done. I was last from the plane with Chaz, was told sit on the edge bend my nears and once out of the plane hold your head up as theres a desire to curl up but that means the air will be forced more into your face hence breathing would be nigh on impossible .
When we jumped it was a little difficult to hold my head up but tried my best.
At this point id been wearing googles over my glasses to hold them on.
Plus id been allowed keep my white diamond stud earring in, as usually they say all jewellery must be taken off, id explained since id lost Jayne every day when i go out i always put them in. oh id not wore earrings since i was 19,
id simply pushed the studs through my ear lobes a week or so afgter losing Jayne . Once we reached the altitude were the parachute was opened. I was told i could take the googles off. Was a little hesitant but took them off, And i could see for miles around as we descended. Landing was smooth like we had jumped off the bottom rung of a ladder.
Afterwards before Chaz could say anything , i told him why id done this skydive and how it wasnt for kicks or giggles just plain and simple id lost my partner Jayne and needed to show how much i loved and miss her.
Chaz kinda grasped my reasons and explained that his mum had breast cancer and had decided to have a mastectomy and luckily she is still here.
i thanked him and said it was a nice experience.
I did post a review on trustpilot. sadly like many companies there are lots of negative reviews as when skydives are cancelled some have travelled miles to then be disapointed at the late cancellation, Luckily for me my dive went ahead as planned. A month or two after i contacted my local paper the Caongleton Chronacle and this article was wrote. got be totally honest i aint happy about the words used in places as i wasnt what id said.
Wanted it made clear Jayne was my one true love but alas these writers make up their own sentences grrrrrrr.
I know not many will be inclined to do something extreme to show their love for their lost partner/wife?husband. But to those thinking about doing something similar, It does give one a sense of pride and inner peace knowing youve achieved the goal you set out to do.
Ian x
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How lovely to read an update on a post from a few years ago.
Your love for her shines through.
For the first anniversary of my OH passing I’m going to Brixham, I can’t be at home.
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Thank you for sharing this update Ian. How brave of you to honour your beloved Jayne in such a meaningful way. And how lovely that a friend (Kate) you made on this forum was able to be there as well. It sounded like a remarkable event, done in the spirit of love 
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