Miscarriage at 5 weeks

Coping with bereavement
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I had a miscarriage at 5 weeks. I’ve never experienced anything like this and I hope I never do again.

In total I was actively miscarrying for 12 days. Agony both physically and mentally. Never in my life did I imagine that it could continue for so long. I always assumed it happened and was over quickly. How wrong I was. I’m over the physical things but now I’m left with an empty womb and heartbreaking, mind numbing thoughts.

My partner has been great and very supportive and I have 1 good friend who keeps me grounded and checks on me a lot. I am supported. But still feel very alone. I can’t describe the devastation and confusion I’m feeling. This baby was so wanted and so loved. And they never once got to feel it. I never got to see them on a screen or buy them an outfit. I almost feel like they never existed. But they did, in me. I loved my baby and I hope their soul finds me again.

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Hello @TwistedSoul1,

I can see that you’re new to the community. I hope you find it to be a support to you, but I am so sorry for the loss of your baby that brings you here.

You’re not alone. You might want to connect with @Hildafifi who recently posted this thread.

You might also find these organisations helpful.

Sue Ryder also has some resources which can help you cope with grief.

  • Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief

  • Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through.

Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.

Take care,
Seaneen