Nothing more to be said.
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I so agree with everyone on here. My real life has ended and now I just go though the motions of living. I try my best mostly because of my children and grandchildren who i can see are worried about me. Best wishes to all.
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Reading through these posts gives me solace. I have the same feelings but if I try and share them with family or friends, they just don’t understand me, so I just don’t say anything, and they think I’m doing OK,but I’m not.
So I’m glad I have all of you here who know exactly what I’m going through because you are also sadly experiencing the same, and I know exactly what you’re all going through too.
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Most of this is how I feel I get cross that this has happened. The silence as cant cope with the radio I think is one of the worst things. Cant watch TV we used to watch can`t even eat what we ate. However in the middle of this do have some positive days as I know that is what he would want . I think you have to be part of this to understand it so a forum like this is so comforting
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I totally ‘get’ how you feel, especially not being able to watch TV programmes you enjoyed together, I can’t face boiled eggs as I made my husband two every morning. I feel sick when I look at them. It’s good to know that others understand how we feel. Good wishes to all.
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I know exactly how you feel, just wondering if I’ll ever laugh again
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Gosh that is exactly me, we always said we would grow old together
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I am sorting of hoping I will and hopefully you will
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I feel the same too about dying, living a long time & TV etc. I can’t face porridge which I made for R every morning, Can’t listen to the radio apart from Absolute Rock as it’s sort of ‘safe’, less chance of hearing a song to set me off! this is hard as I love music but can’t even use that to drown out the awful silence of my empty house…the list of can’t do’s goes on. I don’t live now, I just exist but somehow I’m getting through each day asking for R to give me the strength and thinking of my sons and Gkids. It’s helpful to sound off on here but I wholeheartedly wish none of us had to. Thinking of you all x
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Oh, how I feel for you @JlovesR, ‘existing’ and not ‘living’ is the perfect description of this life I’m living now. Getting up every morning and wishing it was nighttime again, not wanting to confront the world, can’t wait till the day is over and done with.
Sending you strength.
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Hi , yes that’s all we wanted to be together when we were old , nothing big or grand , just us happy in our little life . So sad so cruel . I definetly don’t want to grow old by myself .xtake carex
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Hi . I seem to walk from room to room not doing anything . It’s as if I am looking for husband . I can’t settle down on a night and watch telly . Music has me crying all the time . I spend a lot of my time lying on our bed just looking at ceiling and thinking . It really doesn’t help . Nothing does . But I do get up each day and go to work . So I suppose that’s a bit of a positive , even though I hate it and would rather be in the house even though I hate that as well . A year on and it still feels as bad . If not worse . I feel now husband is getting further away from me each day . Moan over , but it does help knowing people on this site are kind and caring xtake carex
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I’m so sorry. I wish I had words to help. I feel it too x
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Oh I feel like this every day .
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Hello,
You have just described so accurately everything that I feel…… I lost my wife in may and I’m at a loss……… I feel exactly like you
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Hi yes my husband may. Each morning I wake and think it’s all a dream … this wasn’t meant to happen to us … we were total soul mates
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Hello…… I know, life is so cruel isn’t it…… I’m really struggling at the moment…… I just think why?…. Why has this happened to us
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I think the same. My heart is breaking
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Hi, i feel exactly the same i lost my wife Sheila in February, i am absolutely heartbroken and it is not getting any easier. I feel lost, lonely and so alone, i can’t look forward to anything. I am dreading Christmas this year, and we both used to love it. I seem to be just existing at the moment not living. I am retired so i am on my own all day every day, i do go for walks and i go for a drive every day. Life will never be the same, i just miss Sheila so much. 
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Hi JlovesR,
It is over three and a half years since I lost my husband, and I really don’t feel much better. I listen to Heart most days as it is not as soppy as some stations, but every now and then they play a song that is so relevant to me and hubby, and I’m off again. I do cry a lot (I’m sure my Eddie would be getting annoyed with me now), but I just can’t help it - I miss him so much. I never thought I would be in this position as I am heading into my 70s. I can now just manage to cook some of the foods Eddie liked, but with some difficulty.
Yes, I think we just exist after a long life with a partner (I would have been married 50 years this year). I try still to put a brave face on, but that is also with a lot of difficulty. My kids (adult) and my grandkids keep me going, but as soon as they leave I still find myself in tears, wishing things could have been so different. I feel that I am just a very sad person now, but will keep trying as that is what Eddie would have wanted. God bless everyone in this horrible position 
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