Hi Lyn, I am still full of sadness over my mum. Still nothing makes sense to me but I’m hopeful with time that things will improve. You are right, death can never separate love. Love is eternal and in fact I love my mum more now than ever. I was just discussing this last night with my dad that mum is in fact me. I aspire to be like she was, I shall never be better than she was though and I wouldn’t want to be. The fact remains that I am half of her as half her DNA is me. Such an incredible thought and I am so lucky to actually exist at all because by sheer probability I should not be here. I owe her my life so it’s my duty not to waste what I have left.
We all share something in common, grief and love. Grief is a symptom of love. I have felt like I have many failings and guilt but I’m working through those like many others here. I hope I can be someone my daughter will aspire to be like in the years ahead before and after I’m gone. In the meantime, I’m looking forward to some happy memories rather than the painful ones I have right now.
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