So sorry for the loss of your husband and the pain you are going through.
I lost my partner three yeas ago and it still hurts as bad ad day one.
Everyday he is on my mind and the tears are not far behind.
thank you for your kind words i am so sorry for the loss of your husband i lost my husband 4 months ago he lost his battle with cancer he fought long and hard to beat it but the chemo was not working and we were told he only had 6 months it was so hard hearing them say them words
You get a real feeling of how you experienced the passing of your mum.
There was periods of my partners final days where i thought i did things wrong or could have done things differently.
My partner was a strong lady and in away planned the way she wanted to go .it didnt make things any easier on my side but she did pass away at home with me present.i found that very hard and i re play that moment all the time .that breaks me .
There is no right or wrong way you did the best at that moment.
You obviously really loved your mum and she would know that.
There was a moment my partner was going to be man handled to hospital as she could not answer simple questions by the ambulance staff .so they sent for a extraction team to force her .
By some miracle she came round and they could not force her no more and thats how she stayed at home.
@Vonde i am so sorry that happened it sounds awful!
My mum was adamant that she wanted to stay at home she said no to any hospitals or anyone else to come into the house. I listened to her wishes and went along with what she wanted, but then things took a turn for the worse and she started gasping i had no other choice but to try and save her by calling an ambulance.
The ambulance came and they deemed her incapable of making her own decision so they took her away and she passed away in hospitial early the next morning.
Turns out she died of septic shock, i thought she just had low blood sugar as she was diabetic. I guess now i will always live with the question could i have done more?