Same here. Today I’ve cried incessantly, cried while watching TV, cried while doing stuff around the house, but there are still more tears coming. I haven’t had any signs either and would really need one. 
I empathise. I thought I was coping reasonably well after losing Dad last July but had a meltdown at Christmas. Felt I was going backwards rather than forwards but counsellor assured me its perfectly normal. Christmas and New Year were the trigger. I’ve been signed off work with anxiety since late December. Tracey x
3 Likes
I’m so sorry for your loss Tracey, it feels like the world has come to a stand still and there’s nothing left to look forward to, or smile for. Everything was ripped from under my feet when Dad was taken. It’s just a total nightmare.
Xx
2 Likes
My remote control and TV has been doing funny things, I wonder if it’s Dad trying to let me know he here watching over me. I’ve had lots of white feathers too and knocking sounds on internal doors and external, that’s woke me up, like a dream, but knowing it’s not a dream…
I’ve had visitation dreams too, but it’s like I want more. I need to know for sure, that he’s still here, but just in a different way.
Xx
1 Like
Thank you and I’m sorry for your loss, as well. It’s just the most horrendous thing. Yes, Christmas and New Year were huge triggers.
1 Like
That’s a whole lot of signs! 
But I totally get wanting more, we don’t know for sure so we need the confirmation.
There’s a robin I see in the garden a lot Ive named ‘the Dad Robin’ (it’s probably not the same one but I’m telling myself it is). I say hi to him when I see him x
4 Likes
Let’s hope it is your Dad. Every night I go to sleep and long to dream of Dad, I prefer to be asleep than awake, because Dad might appear.
Xx
3 Likes
Same here
Oh Catherine…I completely understand…
I will certainly remember your dear Dad’s name when lighting candles…my wonderful kind Dad was Bernard…but he loved to be known as Bernie…he was the kindest most understanding caring Dad ever…I’m broken without him…and just wanted to say … keep moving forward…your Dad would be proud that you broke away from the toxic nature of relatives…that is an awful thing to experience…as I also know…I’ve had some experience of that too. Stay strong … please please look after yourself and reach out xx
Thank you for your kind words. I’m still really struggling, but trying to be strong is proving more difficult than I thought. Some of the relatives have been in touch and I’m just being friendly now, because I can’t cope with any more upset. I can’t handle this sadness it’s eating me up.
I’m just too broken.
Xx