My best friend my everything gone at the age of 30. Utterly devastated. Very sudden. Last Saturday his brother found him on his bedroom floor. His brother and his dad tried desperately to save him. It was too late 
We are all broken our world has shattered into a million pieces and I just don’t know how I can carry on without him. We were so so close. He still lived at home we text each other throughout the day. I was Constantly checking on him. That one morning I wasn’t there I wish I could turn back the clock. Utterly devastated my beautiful kind caring loving son. Grief stricken beyond words 
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I am very sorry to hear of your terrible loss. My son died aged 33 in November and we are broken by his passing. To die in your thirties with so much of life still to experience seems so unfair. How we all wish we could turn back the clock. You will find a very supportive group of people on this website. We can’t take away your agony, but we understand what you are going through.
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Thank you and I’m so very sorry for your loss. Its just absolutely devastating
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I am so sad to hear about your lovely son, how you must all be broken hearted. I lost my son july 24 he was just 41. None of us will ever be able to say “it gets better” because that seems impossible right now. I will say for me, it has become less traumatic, thats the only way I can describe it. I hope you find a way to manage through the next days, weeks, months.
I have found this forum so helpful, I hope you continue to visit whenever you need to, sending you love
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So sorry you are here also
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I lost my eldest son in November. He was 40. The post mortem said he died of ischaemic heart disease.
I have his medical records and nowhere is any mention of heart issues. He’d had a lot of kidney problems roughly 8 wk cycles since he had Covid in March 22.
I have a meeting at the hospital on Thursday as I want an investigation.
It was 21 weeks yesterday, I still cry most days, and it’s hard to believe it’s actually happened. We buried his ashes 3 wks ago so I can go there and talk to him when I want. Some days are harder than others.
It’s unreal and so painful. I have no words to help apart from do what you need to, to help yourself and go day by day.
I have 3 other sons. They and everyone say how strong I am but it’s just a front. Inside I have fallen apart.
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I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my beautiful daughter Lauren aged 41 on 26/11/24 we are devastated . It doesn’t get better you just continue to exist and I don’t know how. Lauren was my best friend we spoke 3-4 times a day, saw one another 3-4 times a week if not every day. The universe continues and every day I cry for my beautiful Lauren.
This people on this site have helped me to put one foot in front of the other and just survive hour by hour.
Hugs to you and all the grieving parents.
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So sorry you are here too. My son was 30 and we lost him last May. No reason. He was fit and well and loving life with his wife and 1 year old and baby on the way. I can’t believe it. I have lost so many friends as I can’t communicate with others now. I haven’t been back to work and it looks like I’ll be fired. It’s so cruel. Do you have any answers for your son yet? So sorry
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I’m so sorry you lost your son also. It’s just absolutely devastating loosing a child. I hope you get answers on Thursday.
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Thank you.
It’s an awful club to be in - losing a child is the most heartbreaking, horrendous thing ever.
The meeting is just for me to air anything and tell them what I think / know. I will then have to wait 30/40 days for the investigation to take place.
In a 2 yr span my son was in the ED or on the ward a total of 22 times and I cannot believe that nothing was ever diagnosed. Ben said over and over he felt he was being fobbed off, so this is my chance to try and fight for him. It won’t change what has happened but it might help someone else in the future.
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Goodness, 22 times. That is a lot. He should have received an accurate diagnosis after so many hospital visits. Good luck with the meeting. X
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Thank you.
That is why I’m so angry.
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No we don’t but I have found out about his last day and what he did.
Last summer, He had a severe head injury resulting in 2 skull fractures and a blood clot on his brain. He also had frontal lobe damage which we were told would not heal. He was assaulted on a night out.
He was getting better but suddenly just a few weeks ago he started to get severe ear ache. Numerous trips to the GP and A&E. He had his ears syringed and we were hoping the pain would become more tolerable but sadly it didn’t he developed an ear infection straight after the ear syringe. He was struggling so badly with this intense pain. It seemed he wasn’t getting the help he desperately needed. The day before he passed away he met a drug dealer who sold him an incredibly strong pain killer. We have since found out this medication was fake and possibly this stopped his heart or he had a seizure. He had epilepsy. His dad had just popped to the shop. His mate was in his bedroom with him. He slept through the whole incident which is unbelievable. His mate said he tried to wake him for 20 minutes but couldn’t. If this mate had only made his dad aware of the situation as soon as he saw my son on the floor then it could have been a life saver​:broken_heart: It’s just so all heartbreakingly tragic my beautiful kind caring boy. My best friend. My soul mate
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I’m so sorry. How tragic. None of us should have the pain that the loss of a child brings. Us grieving parents will always be heartbroken
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@kitty4 after months we had a call from the coroner to say my son had pneumonia, this, plus steroids he was taking (even though i didnt know) caused a major heart attack at 41. I hate that he took drugs, more than just steroids, I hate that I didnt notice and talk to him about it, I hate that he had pneumonia that sonehow didnt present with any symptoms but we carry on don’t we, because we have to and need to. My heart goes out to you with all the questions you have going round and round in your head. X
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So sorry to hear your loss. It is so sad. I lost my beautiful only daughter on 6th of jan 2025 she was 30 years. Doing a phd in child educational psychology. Was very healthy and run a 10 k marathon in November. She passed away. I feel so heartbroken . I can’t believe my beautiful daughter is gone. I haven’t received a postman results yet . First was inconclusive now waiting. I feel lost and drained. I visit her a lot at her resting place which helps as I talk to her and feel close.
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So sorry, Edith. It’s so cruel that this has happened to our children. They deserve to be here living a good life. You have been waiting a long time for results too. It doesn’t make any sense when they are fit and well and this happens. Goes against everything we know about the human body. Sending my love.
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I’m so sorry for your loss.
I know that heartbreak I lost my daughter aged 41 who was fit and healthy to a spontaneous intracranial haemorrhage on 26/11/24. She was just getting her life together 2 years after getting out of a relationship with a controlling narcissist. The relationship with her daughter (aged 17) was becoming good after the horrible teen years and she had been on a Greek holiday on her own. We spoke at least 3 times a day and saw one another at least 3 times a week usually every day.
I am lost and I am lonely even though I’m surrounded by my husband, granddaughter, son and friends.
I cry all the time. I don’t sleep for more than 2 hours and doze the rest.
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I am so sorry you have lost your much loved son Kitty. I lost my daughter last October and I feel your pain most deeply. I wasn’t able to be with her either and the desire to hold her is physical. After a while I comfort myself with good memories. Sending much love and understanding. x
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I’m so sorry for your loss, my 18 yo son died in July 24, we still have no cause as he was on a college trip in Costa Rica and they had to do the post mortem over there. Life is so different now, my husband had a stroke and died in December at 52, he was utterly broken. There are 3 of us left, I’m 48 and my boys are 22 and 14. I’m determined to honour them both by living a full life, its hard but when you get passed the first few months the happy memories do become easier. I want to celebrate the time we all had together. Everything i do now is for them and to make the loss easier for the boys. Look after yourselves and don’t bottle anything up and make use of all the support groups, until you are here you have no idea of this other reality that is going on for so many people xxx
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