He died suddenly, I found him in the kitchen. He was a retired hospital anaesthetist. It was too late to do CPR. He had Type 2 diabetes but it was well controlled. I miss him every day, I’m broken.
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So sorry to hear of your awful heartbreaking loss.
My husband of nearly 45 years was the same. Not ill, was fit for a 65 year old man but had been having some gallstone problems on and off for 3 years. Eventually he got to go in for a routine laparoscopic cholecystectomy as a day case patient and tragically he never came home. He was admitted, suffered septic shock and multi organ failure, under their “care”
This was on 21st February 2025. Still awaiting Coroner’s Inquiry after many investigations. Me and my family will never get over it, but we are trying our best to move forward.
Sending you 
Take care
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Can I just say…just like mine. In shock. Like a plane crash…
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Hi Elio
I understand your pain, the idea of death seems suddenly like a great release but I’m sure your wife would want you to carry on as would you her if the situation was the reverse.
My wife and I would have been married for 40 years this March. After passing this beautiful girl coming into a pub in London as I was coming out I turned back and that was that. I was only 18 but I followed her all the to her home in Spain where we married.
She was diagnosed with cancer two years ago and she was given 5 months to live but she kept going. She was fit and healthy when she went into hospital to have a small intervention when she got an infection and it all ended very quickly after that. She died on Christmas Day.
I can’t believe I was so lucky to have had a wonderful woman like her by my side all these years. Even with all the cancer treatments she looked so beautiful and she would always be trying to cheer up other patients.
I’ve been assisting a bereavement group which helps. In 6 or 7 years we would have retired and she was so looking forward to travelling a bit but now I have an empty house and an empty life. She wanted me to be happy and carry on and I’m trying but when I look at her photos it is so difficult. She was everything to me.
Keep on going for your wife and try and forgive the hospital and doctors, if you don’t bitterness can take hold and your wife loved you because you were good.
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My God…you described what I went through. I am sorry Brandon. I know you have a short time with her….I had literally 10 mins with her. She went in for a routine…the small risk of a hoarse voice for a few days. She died on the operating table. I also wish I have 40 years with her like you. I had 30. Solicitors have taken the case on. They have seen the autopsy.
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As you appear to be an organiser, is there a proper meet group somewhere in the North West? Exchanging messages help but I think that a meetup would be more helpful
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I feel your pain. I was 18 when I met my husband we were together 35 yrs. We did everything together and were never apart. He got diagnosed with cancer and was gone 4 wks later the end was very hard as they didnt keep up with his deterioration but thats not why I am writing this post.
It is 2yrs now and I am only 55 I dont know either of your ages but I assume you are young like me sorry if I am incorrect but what I wanted to say is iy is hard and like yourselves I thought my life had ended and I didn’t want to go on without him but although I miss him every day I am still here and it is easier.
What keeps me going is I know he would want me to be happy and im living my life as he no longer can.
Always happy to chat
Take care michelle
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I could never have imagined how lonely one could feel. It’s only a couple of months since my wife died but every week seems more difficult. When I close the front door I feel like my chest is being ripped apart, I just miss her so much. I would much rather be with her than alone without her. I try doing all the right things but it is so hard. I try not to think of the future but it is sometimes so difficult not to ponder on how beak it looks.
I’m having a bad day sorry
Tom
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Tom you have absolutely nothing to feel sorry about and what tou are feeling is so normal. When andrew passed i felt i spent weeks on the floor crying i couldnt imagine being without him and part of me went with him that day. Gradually I got off the floor and onto the sofa. Felt like a huge step.
Minute by minute thats all you need to think about.
I still cry i think I always will but I can now also smile
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Thanks Michelle some days seem so difficult but a word of encouragement goes a long way.
Thanks again Tom
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If ever you need to chat just message me we are here to help each other
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so sorry for your loss, wish i could say something better xx
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Thank you kindly. I hope nothing bad has happened to you. You are a kind person. I am sleeping on her side of the bed. She would still be alive if mistakes were not made. I miss her very much. As you can see….days when sleep is in piece meal
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So so sorry ,words are not enough fly high Bautiful Lady RIP 
Thank you kindly Gaz. I am traumatised, as the death was totally unexpected. All her things are still in the house, and even her car still in the drive. It was a pretty big mess, as nobody except God, had even remotely expected death. Note however, when you are on the operating table, when you are under the knife, there is nothing you can do about it save that your life is 100% in the hands of the surgeons..nothing……absolutely nothing.
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I understand your pain completely 
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So hard for you, I do understand. I truly felt that I could reverse everything that had happened as my dear Nigel battled so hard against the odds as he fought the devastating Cancer that took his life and left me devastated . I know that every day will take enormous effort just to get through the day. I don’t suppose that you feel that you are doing well at all, but just by posting on here takes enormous strength and everyone on is with you and sending you our support.
It won’t happen overnight, but I really do believe that if you keep reaching out there will always be many who will offer you their support. I could barely string two words together let alone write whole sentences .
I hope that I haven’t rambled on too long, just want to help.
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I do understand Elio. I went through a time when I wanted kill myself many times a and wanted to destroy everything around me. I got help from a psychiatrist not a psychologist. Please see a psychiatrist. They do help
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Hi @Peg2
I feel your pain! I lost my partner 5 weeks after his cancer diagnosis, he was only 47. We went to A&E as he had been suffering with back pain to be told he had cancer, he was admitted immediately and never came home again. I completely hear what you say about the suffering! To see how fast he deteriorated and the pain he suffered was unbearable. Nearly a year on and I still struggle to believe it happened.
I hope you are doing ok.
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