Hi everyone, my name is Rudi
i’m a little lost. I was at an age where i started to walk away from friends not intentionally mainly down to me spending all my time with my family and work . as a result of that a lot of my time was invested in my little brother. which i’d not change for the world. we’d go to the gym together, days out with my children. I’d talk to him every day, messaging , funny videos or on the phone. i was 35 and he was 21. i served in the british army and i used everything i was taught to help educate him and inspire him to be the best he could be
unfortunately he was taken away from me, unexpectedly. He was killed by a friend the morning after boxing day in said friends home . it’s plain as day what happened. he had no self defence marks on him and he was beaten badly and didn’t survive. no marks on the friend. It was only him and the individual who is being invested together in that house and is on bail whilst the investigation is still on. even though it’s 2 years in December.
so much too my story and his. we have been met with a ridiculous amount of police incompetence. from them telling passers-by it was a young man who had passed because of a cardiac arrest. — completely wrong, but fuelled a fire around our small town.
i’m not sure what i want or need from talking to others but i have such a weight on my back i’m slowly losing my mind.
thank you for reading a small part of my story. if anyone one has any advice or been through something similar. thank you