KarenF
Thank you for your kind words,
Will be thinking about you and sending hugs on the 25th ,
Birthdays, Anniversaries,are all so difficult,
It still hard to believe that my Dave is no longer here,
My son had a Teddy Bear made for me with Dave name on out of one of my husband jackets ,
Take care of yourself,and I hope your daughter is ok too ,
Big hugs ,
Sue xx
I am so sorry to hear this, all the thoughts you had about ending your own life I had also. The loss and pain are immense and all that we can do is take each day as it comes.
Please message anytime and if I can help I will.
I lost my partner 1st March and I feel sick and horrible inside. I’ve reached out to this group and hopefully it will help us both. x
@R0yst0n
Such early days for you too so keep with us and we’ll try and support you through this terrible time.
It is a truly amazing group of people here who can be as helpful as counsellors in my opinion as we have at least all suffered this immense loss so do understand each other.
Hugs
Karen xxx
Thank you @Susie3021
I just finished knitting a memory bear for my daughter which has a dress made from her Dad’s jeans and pieces from t shirts on the paws and ears.
I also have made quilts from his clothes for myself and younger daughter with still one to do for my older daughter.
That sounds really lovely ,
It’s so sad that we all are on here because of the love of our lives we have lost
We have had cushions made out of T Shirts
of my husband clothing ,my son has them ,as he lives quite far away from me
Take care and I hope you get through the 25th without too many tears,
The 25th March was the date i met my Dave
Many years ago and I got myself in such a state that day , remembering happy memories and him not been here
Love and hugs
Sue xx
@KarenF thank you for your kind words…I often read your post which are inspiring. I know it must be so hard for you still and always will. We will never stop loving our partners. I think of John every day and even find myself copying his habits and frowning like he did a lot. I have his ashes in glass in a heart necklace which I wear every day. I also wear elastic band on my wrist which I ping when I become overwhelmed. Big hugs xx
Thank you, Karen, for your lovely words. My beloved husband’s car is still in our driveway and I can see it any time of the day. I do not drive and my husband’s nephew would like to buy it from me but I am still not ready to let it go. I hope you and your daughter are ok. Take care for now. Sending big hugs this way from Anna xxx
@Annaessex I still got my husband car and like you I can’t bear it to go so going to keep it for a while and eventually my son can part exchange it for a new car for himself. Life is so unfair 
I still have my husband’s sports car. I have no choice now but to sell it as need space in the garage as cant go into loft or space above garage now as John used to do that so need storage space in the garage.
In a small bungalow so had to clear out lots of John’s clothes, work stuff (as he was an electrician) and his personal bits . All earlier than I would have liked but got to be practical and hate asking people to get things I cant get as hate loft ladders. Very hard and upsetting but most done now just waiting for an offer for the MGTF his pride and joy. I bought it for him for his 65th birthday.
Life is awful and brings tears every day for me xx
So sorry to hear that. I think of you. Hugs from Anna
Love And hugs to you too xx
@Hazel.1966
That’s very kind of you to say such a lovely thing; thank you.
Hazel and @Annaessex I didn’t think I was emotionally attached to Richard’s work car at all (driving tuition car) but when it eventually went, about five or six months after he died, I sobbed as it was lifted on to the lorry.
Sorry for earlier typos. I do wish you could edit at any time, not just for a short while after posting.
Must of been very hard for you @KarenF
Dread when that day comes. I gave my husband best friend his WILL U game which made me cry. Miss John so bloody much 
so sorry @Shelley50 you have had so much to organise it must feel overwhelming. Hope you can find some me time in all of this. Sending hugs xx
Hi Sandi
Thank you so much. Good to know you all are there to chat too.
Moved into bungalow 2 wks before John died. Needs a lot of work but beginning to get it sorted.
Everyone says I am doing so well but I have to live there and John wanted us to do it together. We both had ideas to modernise it so I am doing what he would have wanted. But that does some days really hurt but I carry on. Whether I will stay here when its done I dont know as it was our dream and we downsized for our mature years.
Only time will tell. But miss him so much. This is making me cry now still after 6 mths
Love and hugs to you all
Shelleyxx
Hi Shelley
Before my Husband died on March 1st only 48 days ago we also down sized and bought an apartment 3 years ago. Even though we gutted it and made it beautiful, I started getting him involved in plans to change the decor and convert the dining room back to a bedroom. It was my way of distracting him from illness.
Now Stewart has passed I am still going to do these things and make them happen .
The distraction will be good for me.
Sending love and hope.
Steve xx
@Shelley50 you are doing so well to manage all the renovations, it must be really hard knowing your husband it not there to share them with you as you had planned. I suppose there is no rush once you have completed them whether you stay or move, you will know what feels right and when you are ready. Oh how we miss our partners, I was driving back from work today, usually I work from home, but I went into work for the first time since my husband died in January. i was thinking of the last time I drove back from work and my husband met me at the door and said ‘come on were going out for dinner’. I loved those spontaneous moments. xxx
Yes I know what you mean sandi
We used to eat out every week and I miss that so much. Havent been out in the evening for a meal since John died. I dont drive in the dark either.
I think Sat evenings are the worst.
Good to chat. Love xx
Yes weekends are the worst for me too. I try to keep busy but its just not the same as we would have been out and about together. Will hang onto those lovely memories xxx
hello annaessex, im so sorry you havd lost your hubby. i can relate to you. mine passed away in hospital all was going fine nobody expected him to die …wow ive been broken it was such a shock. he didnt know he was going to die either …that really hurts me …i died with him …6 months on its still a nightmare…but somehow we carry on and you will too xx i got a little part time job fir routine and distraction . please take care. love and thoughts to you xx