Hi everyone 8 months down this horrible journey and I can honestly say things aren’t getting any better for me, iv been to the doctors and explained how I’m feeling and they just gave me some tablets iv given them a go but they make no difference to how I feel, hop everyone is doing the best they can.
Hi Mark 18 months for me now since my boy passed.Time is no healer. I still cry everyday I just want to hug him again and tell him how much I love him.I do get out and about just to get through each day.But in a way I have resigned myself now to this being my life.There is nothing anybody can say or do to take away this pain.So I will continue to live with it.Take care Mark x
I understand everything you’re saying Marg I still can’t hold the tears back at times so I tend to keep away from people because it can be very embarrassing I spend most of my time on my own with my dog and thoughts, it’s a very sad life we’ve got ahead of us and I will admit I’m not looking forward to it at all.
I hope you can find some peace having the ashes back, when I had my sons back I lost control completely but I have a beautiful hand made large pot which I can see from my patio doors, I can talk to him all the time. Little steps is all we can do and with the help of this forum we all realise we are not alone on this horrendous grief journey xx
My son’s ashes are in a really nice urn and it sits at side of the tv, I have a ritual at night I always put my hand on the urn and say good night and love you son then I go to bed and first thing in the morning I put my hand on the urn and say good morning love you son and your with me all day, I know it’s probably silly but I feel like I have to do it because I don’t want him to think he’s forgotten 
Please don’t think that is silly, I think it is lovely. I speak to my sons loads in a day. I’ve had a tattoo done in memory as well and that has helped me as when I go out, very rare unless walking the coastal path, I like avoiding people, I know he is always with me. Xx
Iv not posted in a long time iv been completely lost in this new life, it’s getting close to 2 years iv been travelling this terrible journey and things just haven’t got any better every day is filled with nothing but sadness and the worst pain imaginable I’m still struggling to sleep and the terrible nightmares are still there it’s just so hard trying to carry on in this new life and very exhausting wearing this “ I’m ok “ mask everyday.
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It is very hard ,my son who had special needs died of cancer July 2023. I still have a lot of his things,the other day I came across the bible he was given when he was confirmed .He was 47 when he died ,and loved by so many,we just have to go on and hope this world gets better. I am thinking of you
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Hi mark where does time go .i understand we live in this life and we feel we live a lie …yes im ok thank you ! .its bull …i get so angry i lost sam age 24 be four years april . I want to shout he did live you can talk about him . We live with this sadness everyday theres 1000.000 who have lost its a very harsh wicked world .im trying to keep sams memory alive he was our superhero. He died of sarcoma .i really hope you find peace somedays, our babies wouldnt want us to be so sad xx
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Iv really found this year 2 to be much harder than year 1 for some reason im really hoping that year 3 has some changes for the better because it’s so hard living in constant sadness and fear for the future.
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