Lost my darling wife in May last year it was very quick and unexpected. My heart has been shattered into 1 million pieces. I still cannot make sense of what’s going on. Nothing seems to make any sense anymore. Not sure what the Future holds, but I know I can’t do it without her
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Lost my husband 4 months ago and i understand how you feel i am not sure how my life can go on with out him i feel so lost with out him
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Lost my wife of 48 years suddenly in January this year and I feel the same…I know I need some help…I feel for you my friend.
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I too lost my husband suddenly four months ago, I’m so lost without him. I’m not me without him and this lonely world terrifies me. Hugs to everyone going through this nightmare xx
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I know how you feel when i lost my husband it felt like not only did i lose my husband i also lost my best friend we did everything together . Big hugs to you xx
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Thank you Sue. It’s helpful but also very sad to know others feel the same way x
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@Stuey999
April last year for me and still many aspects of life are so difficult. You are certainly not alone but we WILL get there with support from each other. I use the love I have for my husband to inspire me to look after what mattered to him and make him proud. That keeps me very busy.
Sending love and understanding.
Karen xxx
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Its really helps to know I am not alone in my feelings. I lost my husband in January and I just dont know how to be. We were together 46 years and I have never lived alone. I feel I am just going through the motions of living. I am lucky to have a great family and circle of friends but he was my soulmate and part of me feels missing.
Sandy
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@sandi
That’s one of the things about this site, we realise we are NOT alone. Very sadly there are many of us in the same boat just learning to live a life we didn’t choose.
We can support each other as we strive to create some sort of new reason to live now we have lost a major part of that reason.
Sending love
Karen xxx
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Thank you I’m glad to have found such a supportive network of people who really know how it feels as we try to move forward out of the darkness. Sending love and support to everyone on their journey
xxx
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thank you for the kind words Karen I know im not alone but it sure feels like it, im only a really bad run lately, 2 years ago we had 5 retired greyhounds, my son and my wife, now just me and my son, sick of death, sick of worry and really sick of the guilt xx
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@Stuey999
Keep posting about how you feel as it’s a sort or outlet for some of those emotions.
How old is your son? Does he still live with you?
My younger daughter is 24 and still lives here as she has a learning disability and this morning her needs have changed the shape of my day. It brings a bonus as it means I’m not out all day now so could pop on here to see how people are.
Sending hugs xxx
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I know so hard without them isnt it ? I keep thinking i wish id done this and i wished done that ! I wish id told him more i loved him … miss him so much … he only went in December but its so rubbish without him … i did one of his jobs today - putting bird feed out ! I could hear him saying " get some more fat balls debs next time you got to the shops" miss meaningless conversations like that … sounds silly doesnt it !!!
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Hi Deb5, it doesn’t sound silly, i have so many regrets including our last words, what if I had done this, etc, I too never told her enough how much I loved her, she used to ask and my answer was always , I told you once, if the situation changes I will tell you, i am wracked with guilt all the time
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@KarenF
my son is 27 and still lives here, he has autism and ADHD so i have been promoted to chief carer, I work from home which is easier, I am so wracked with guilt over everything x
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@sue11
how is it that your world is shattered and completely stops but everyone carries on and you scream at them in your head but you know it can never be the same again x
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I did tell him i loved him … even just before he passed - i just wish id said it more ! Time is so precious isnt it 
its so sad … xx
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I know its not fair seeing everybody carry on as normal is it … when your own life is totally ruined … 
even my own children do it … it makes me sick tbh ! Ifeel like screaming at them tbh …
I know how you feel even my Husbands mum and Dad and the rest of his family carries on with their lives like nothing happened he was their son they have not even been in contact with me since his funeral in Dec
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Oh for goodneas sakes ! Whats wrong with people ? ! 
xxx
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