How awful for you Sherbert that was lovely of the cottage owner but what a terrible experience for you
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We usually go to Whitby but we were going to Flambrough to see the seals
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Im going to chester on my own next weekend for colins first anniversary.
Fingers crossed x
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@HelRen So sorry to hear that your adored Nephew may not be able to support you during one of your most difficult of days 
I’m sure he must be feeling dreadful about the circumstances too and will do his utmost to attend if at all possible. Why is that life seems to do nothing but kick our legs out from beneath us when we’re already struggling so much through our grief? Thinking of you 
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We liked Whitby as well. Used to go to the motown weekends - had some cracking nights! Happy memories but started me crying again…. When will we be able to remember without this awful sadness and pain??
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That’s good you decided to mark day doing something positive . Let’s is know how you get on
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Yes it was horrible, and such a shock. The laws in Scotland are different to England so everything was quite complicated sorting the funeral out . But we got there .
I feel like my life has been turned upside down. My dogs have helped me , on the days when I couldn’t be bothered doing anything. I had to keep going for them this site has also helped me . There are some lovely supportive people on here
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At the moment I don’t think I am quite ready for a holiday. I don’t drive and have dogs . One of the dogs is 14 and Half could put her in kennels . She quite happy to potty about home . She needs TLC so not sure anyone could look after her . I do think it will be tough in summer when everyone else is of on there hols and I am not . I do hope to have hols in the future not sure how I’ll do at the moment .Hope you’re hol in May works for let us know .
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I know that Jonny will be as devastated as I am, so I will try and make it easier for him. But I really, really, really, really want him there.
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I know what you mean. I very much feel as if circumstances are conspiring to make the hardest time in my life even harder. I guess it’s times like this that show you just what you are capable of. I said out loud the other day to the universe ‘Okay, I’ve proved how strong I am, so you can stop testing me now’.
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I really like that about the universe. Im going to try that, il try anything at the minute
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I like that about the universe , might give it a go myself
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Sorry to tell you and @Sherbet10, I’m not convinced the universe listens though. Let’s all try and report back…
Morning everyone. Not a good start to the day. I started decorating the kitchen yesterday, didn’t do much, and then this morning I felt so guilty for doing it. I then sat down and went through photos again and that upset me. Im suddenly feeling guilty about everything. Did I tell her I loved her enough. Did I show her how proud I was to have her on my arm, did I, did I, did i. I know in my heart of hearts I did show her and tell her and I couldn’t have done more through her illness so why do I feel so guilty. This isn’t for everyone but I have her wedding ring and engagement ring laid next to my cross on a copy of the bible and ive asked for the rings to be moved so I know everything is ok. I check twice a day for the last two weeks and nothing. I need to know. The feelings of guilt this morning have really bothered me
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I think all will feel guilty about something. I am sure Gill knows how proud and how much you loved her . It’s good you’ve started painting it will give you something to focus on . Hope you’re day gets better.
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Mick and I had bought paint to do the living room. We were looking forward to doing it together, and seeing the change as we were doing one wall a plumber colour. I will do it in time but can’t face it yet….. And was always the decorators mate so not sure I’ll even be up to the job…. Got a new tablecloth yesterday- again we had said we would do this - but now feel terrible. As if I am wiping out memories. Everything is so hard
But Wddie, from everything you’ve posted on here, your love for Gill is so clear. She knew that when she was here, and she will know it now. Take care x
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Thank you Sherbet, always appreciate your words
Thanks Bear, know what you mean about the feeling of wiping out memories, I think that’s were the guilt comes from. Thank you for saying about Gill that is so comforting x
My husband and I were planning to do our bedroom up together . Like you I was always the decorator mate . I can paint and will do some time in the future
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Sorry I called you Widdie…. Fat, cold fingers can’t type this morning
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