Thank you 
@LJ.G
I lost my wife suddenly to a heart attack in December 2024. We had been married 48 years and even now I don’t think I have fully recovered from the shock.
One thing I have been certain of, from the beginning, is that she is still here for me and with me. I look for little signs which individually seem insignificant but taken together become more than coincidence. I talk to her all the time and I feel she responds in her own way.
Like you I was dreading the funeral but the actual day went extremely well. I felt my wife was with me as I arrived, she stood at my shoulder throughout the ceremony and she left with me. Your partner will be with you and will give you the strength to see it through.
I felt the same when it came to scattering my wife’s ashes. I went on my own apart from a wonderful lady from the crematorium staff. Once again my wife arrived with me, stood with me and left with me. At no stage did I feel I was saying goodbye, I was simply assisting her in tidying up this stage of her eternal existence.
These of course are just my views, you may well see things entirely differently. All I can suggest is that it’s worth keeping an open mind because there are so many things we don’t understand so anything is possible.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you on Monday.
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Sending hugs Hun x 
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Glad you have a good friend you spent time with yesterday to give you some support. I know how hard the funeral day will be for you . You will find the strength to get through the day .
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Thank you for your lovely kind words. I appreciate that. I am hoping he will be right by my side now and forever 
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Feeling really sick today. Can’t focus on anything at all. My tummy is in knots. So many emotions going through me today. Feel so alone 
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I know that feeling very well, it’s a hard journey we are traveling on . I hope all goes well with the funeral tomorrow. I will be thinking of you
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Thank you so much. I’m still so anxious about everything. Am Ion my own today until my brother arrives around 7pm. My head is full of different voices. It’ll be a very long few days. Appreciate your support on here. Miss my partner so much
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It is so hard adjusting to being on your own after being a couple. It is such early days for you . When we are on own the are so many thoughts rattling round our head . Somehow we have company it helps us keep focus . Enjoy the company of your brother tonight
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LJ.G
Thinking of you today. It’s so difficult when we are on your own because your thoughts take over and overwhelm us.
Easier when someone is with us to talk to. I’m glad your brother is coming this evening.
Will be thinking of you tomorrow. I know you will cope and your soulmate will be with you in spirit and you will do him proud.
Life is not fair. Just concentrate on getting through the day tomorrow. 
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Thank you for your kind words. It’s been a long day so far. This loneliness is really hard. I’ve tried to keep busy but it’s hard when your head is so busy.
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Lj.g
I hope all goes well tomorrow. Your dear partner will be by your side every step you take, just ask him to be with you and he will. I felt my Ray was with me at his service, and in some way it gave me comfort on what is a very tough day.
You will get through it and do him proud.
Thinking of you x
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I hope all goes well for you tomorrow.I will be thinking of you.Your dear partner i believe will be with you in spirit every step of the way.His love and support will be wrapped around you.Take care.
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Sending hugs for tomorrow
All the best for tomorrow.
Take care
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Part of the grieving process….seeing the body…and that sudden realisation…that shock that she has passed away. It is horrible. Why but why?
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LJ.G
Thinking of you today.
It will be so difficult for you.
Take care.
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Thinking of you today
The funeral was tha hardest thing ever, I could barely walk. I was inconsolable at times. For me the day was so heartbreaking 
. I began to feel angry at the wake if people laughed, I felt sad as I saw couples together. The day was a blur at times, I just wanted my wonderful partner back. I’m sorry but I didn’t get much closure from the day at all. I came home exhausted with a terrible headache and been like it ever since. Now my family have gone and I’m so lonely again. This is just unbearable at times. I can’t even function properly. Does this ever get easier please x
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I found after the funeral very hard as everyone disappeared I don’t think it gets easier you learn to cope. I’ve pushed myself to go out with friends gone back to work it’s very hard but it helps I try and fill every day with doing something I still think of Mark every day I’m finding I don’t cry so much but still have my moments and my heart is still broken 
I hate my life but I know Mark would be telling me to get on with it which I’m trying very hard to do but I’m doing it for Mark be kind to yourself it just takes time 
x
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