Ah @Charm it is very early days for you. I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s almost 13 weeks since I lost my husband. Some days I think I’m fine, other days I feel like I’m right back at day one. The pain at those times is unbearable. I really don’t know how I’ve coped this long. My family have helped enormously and so has this site. Without them, I’d have been right behind David. There’s a huge big gap and I feel like I’m constantly trying to cover it (it will never be filled). I hate this new life.
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Hi
27 weeks yesterday Paul passed
How has it got this far
How have I coped this long
In truth feels like yesterday but then in other ways it’s an eternity since I spoke to him hugged him laughed together, ate together went out together sat in together I can go on and on and on
You are so right the seering pain in my whole body is just horrific
Will time help……. I don’t know and yes I too feel like a zombie
Xx
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@Bess1 @Jean8 totally agree with you both…i seem to be getting worse as the time since i last heard him, touched him, kissed him, chatted to him is getting further away, it hurts even more. How does it get better? Fill the days with stuff, try to keep busy and get out for walks but its just covering up the pain. Im only 48 and dont want the rest of my life to be like this. I wish he would take me with him, cos i hate this new life too
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Does anyone else wake up feeling sick to their stomach every morning? Xx
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Hi
ME!
I’m just treading water and it’s bloody deep as we all know
Folks have absolutely no idea!
Lolxx
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Hi me too. I’ve lost so much weight. Still can’t eat properly and it’s coming up to twelve months since my husband died.X
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No light at the end of my dark long, long tunnel.
Peace and love. Karen
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I just dont know why no one seems to understands until it happens to them just how big a problem this is. People are finding out every day. There really should be more local groups to join.
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I had a cup of tea with 2 different women today who have gone through what we have and all the stories are the same. The second woman was a complete stranger who invited me back to her house up the road from the green site.
She gave me a village mag which has a meeting for the bereaved tomorrow. I will let you know how it goes. It is in Rutland if any of you is near. I just hope others turn up.
I was feeling really desolate earlier and my mantra is usually what’s the point without him. This pain never ends. Xx
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Bless you Looby - I just can’t be bothered with anything to do with myself xx
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No one understands unless they have been through it and what they don’t realise is that they are not immune to it. It will happen to one in every couple unless you go together. Xx
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Hi Charm
So true the only folk in my life who ‘get it’
The mother of our two bridesmaids …her hubby died 12 years ago and one of her daughters Katie died last May at 52
Also my late cousins partner of 37 years
Anthony died ( my cousin) 3 years gone Christmas
I’ve seen them both today ( it would of been Katie’s 53rd birthday)
They both get it
Yes so right when I look at couples now I just think you just don’t know what lies ahead
Awful I know to think that but I do!
Xx
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Not awful Bess just a normal natural feeling xx
Yes Bess1. I have 4 good friends and two cousins who have suffered bereavements. Without their kind words and support when my wife died and since I would have sunk. My other friends have tried to lift me and I know they are acting from the best of intentions but they don’t quite get it. I can see I was a bit like that myself before. But you can only truly understand the depth of grief if you experience it. I think I have read that comment many times every day I have looked at this site.
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At first, I was annoyed that friends, relatives ,except for those that have journeyed grief, seemed clueless. All the stupid trite sayings that do absolutely nothing to help. But then I realized how could they possibly understand the depth of this grief. I too thought silently and sadly, someday you will understand all too well. Now so many of them have moved on, which of course i get that, but they think we should too. My life has forever changed, which I am sure everyone on this blog can readily relate to. I am 6 mos and very much one day at a time. Sometimes I can’t even manage that.
Peace and love, Karen
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Me too Karetired some days not even baby steps
Some days (a lot) backwards
And yes I too hadn’t appreciated the grief folk face when they loose the love of their life
My counsellor says I’ll be a good support
We all will on here we know what it’s like
I only wish I didn’t
Yes selfish
But…… you folks help because it makes me realise I’m not alone in my thoughts, actions, behaviour , feelings in fact everything
Thank you everyone
Hugs to you all
Xx
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How right you are @Bess1
I really hope I will be more supportive to anyone in our position in the future.
I intend to hang around here and hopefully give some input to newer members. I know we all find things slightly different from each other but hearing several people’s views can help I think.
Love to all
xxx
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Morning Karen F
It so can…… like you I’ll be around folks on here help me and I like you will help them and the unfortunate ‘new’ members
Speaking for myself I so need it!
Xx
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@Bess1
It will be good for us to feel we can offer some support so yes, it helps us too.
People are the most important thing in life and no matter how busy my life is I hope I won’t ever lose sight of that.
Love
Karen xxx
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Me too:+1:
Xx
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