Dave
8 weeks for me and I feel so low and don’t want to carry on without my husband. He was my soulmate and I cannot see a future without him
That’s very normal I don’t think any of us do and what’s more we don’t want a future without our partners. We just have to weather the storm, it’s awful I hate it too.
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Kate, I feel every bit of your agony, I am exactly the same. Lillian was my whole life and she meant the world to me. She was all I lived for and now she’s gone there’s no point to my life anymore.
The future looks bleak. The house is so cold and empty without her. This is worse than a nightmare and I still can’t accept that she’s not coming back.
I don’t know what to do. I can’t carry on like this. I am so lonely and absolutely terrified of the future.
Thank you so much. Please keep sharing and contact
Thank you Dave
I have sent you a private message
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For me, too!
Mornings are difficult
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yes I couldn’t agree more. I am now so lost without him and I tell him everyday, wishing and hoping that he can hear me and know how much he is loved…forever 
sending you best wishes & hugs 
You’re right, Lost12. Mornings are definitely the worst. I am feeling really bad this morning. It might be due to Lillian dying on a Monday but today the grief is worse than ever.
I just can’t face another day without her.
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When I feel like that, I get straight out of the house. Doesn’t matter if you don’t know where you are going just get out and go somewhere busy
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They are definitely worst for me. They start so very very early too. The thought of the long, empty, pointless day stretched ahead. I think I just realised, it’s the thought, all the thinking. Have to stop it.
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Thanks Lost12. Loneliness is allowing all the thoughts of what’s happened to go round and round in my head. Going out does help as I need to be with people. I have often thought of getting in the car and driving anywhere just to get away from it all but the loss of Lillian will always be with me.
Life does seem pointless. Lillian was all I lived for and now she’s gone.
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Hi
I am in the exact same situation,
I thought I was the only one.
Junie
no you are def not the only one i am in the sad same place , i cannot get my head around the pount of carrying on , everything is as you say is pointless . i am 56 and cannot imagine another day like this let alone another 20 + years .
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I have no family, totally on my own
Is it the same for you
Juniex
Just my parents in Northern Ireland in my case, and I am grateful that they are still around.
I live in Kent however, and we had no family so nobody here really.
@Junie1
No family close by (ok, an elderly aunt who I have spoken to less than half a dozen times in 10 yrs. ), no parents, live quite rural and isolated, friends overseas and a close one up north. Work colleagues been good. I suppose that’s a long way of saying it’s just me and the cat.
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We have no friends here, as we only moved here 12 months ago, all our time was taken up with hospital appointments or caring, no time to make friends.
Totally alone, now. Wish there was a meet up for us all,
Junie
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i have an 84 year old mother , she ususally totally relies on me but im no good to her at the moment
Same here, all our time was hospital appand caring. Didn’t have time to spend on friends, no family. So now alone,
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