Not coping and on the verge of giving up.

My partner for the last 18yrs or so passed away suddenly after collapsing in the street it was horrendous as many of you will know on here and ive heard many heartbreaking stories on here from so many wonderful and loving people but im truely not going to get over this many yrs ago I lost my mum suddenly then my wife at 46yrs old to cancer then my son 7yrs ago who was 22yrs old with a motorbike accident and now on the 16/09/23 I lost my partner suddenly who was 56yrs old collapsed in the street and never woke up again I was with her it has devastated me I no longer want to carry on I have people and family I can talk to but nobody who really knows the pain im going through anyway this website has helped me the last little while but im not coping so if anyone feels the same please get in touch I live in northants and would be willing to be in touch with anyone local just for support and friendship but im not going to wait too long as the pain is just too much. X

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I’m sorry Kenny your feeling so desperate today. Have you seen your doc he/she might be able to help . I know how you feel in my early days i too felt like ending it all and i reached out for help . I even rang samartians. Just think is this what your partner would have wanted. Im here if you wish to talk mate.

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Thanks for your reply ive been to my GP he put on citalopram 20mg daily anyway ive a few health issues myself and many other problems would take so long to type but thank you for your offer of help and please keep in touch. X hope your managing to cope at this terrible painfull time.

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Feel for you I have a big support network but feel so alone. It’s the hardest journey ever but somehow we survive x

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Thank you sah28 unless like us and people on here that have been through this most other people have no idea how it breaks you and how it hurts im devastated and have alot of other issues like alot of people but it really is getting soooo hard to carry on I would not wish anyone to have to deal with this hell on earth really it is. X

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Wouldn’t wish it on my worse enemy. 5 months in and the pain gets worse x

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I know its horrendous my partner collapsed in the street never woke up again its literally broke me it happened on 15/09/23 post mortem hasnt been done yet ive had to go back to work 4 days ago but called in tonight just cant face another nightshift dealing with arrogant and rude guests in the hotel I work nightshift in just had enough. X

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Mine was 52 on a veterans trip in Belgium and just went, 5 months in no answers anywhere. He was the earner I’m our 11 year old autistic sons carer could it get any worse :broken_heart:

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I would believe you I have no reason not to as its obvious you like me and many others are devastated and heartbroken to say the least. X

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Please please keep in touch there cant be any harm in trying to support each other going through this also hope monday goes well for you. X

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Sometimes I don’t believe my own journey if someone told me the story I don’t know if I’d believe them x

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It really is crazy and nobody deserves this pain. X

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Hi i know exactly how you feel ,i lost my husband in June this year ,in the space of 6 weeks he was diagnosed with lung cancer and gone ,i reluctantly get up every morning and try to get through each day ,i carry a sick empty feeling around with me all day every day ,i am still angry at the world and although my family and friends keep saying this is my new normal (as though i dont already know)i feel im taking 1 step forward and 2 steps back ,im constantly wishing time away in the hope the pain will lessen ,my heart goes out to you ,take care .

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Thank you and I know exactly how you feel I call it hell on earth. X

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It is hell on earth ,sending best wishes to you x

I agree. I am also 5 months in and it feels like the pain is getting worse. I am not able to return to work yet and although my children are great i feel empty and alone.

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Hi Hazel im at 5 months and feel exactly the same as you love ,just trying to get through a day is terrible ,doctor prescribed antidepressants for me ,but even they dont make me feel anything but tired ,my heart goes out to you .

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Hi Kenny for some reason i cant fathom out how to get your message?.

Its ok dont worry it was just to say that I do know what you are going through its the worst thing that can happen to anyone its devasting x

Emptiness is the worst feeling ever, and yes so alone but surrounded by people it’s horrendous big hugs

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