I’m not coping today pushed myself to get out on the bus walked round and came home again in floods of tears , I feel I can’t cope anymore the loneliness is horrible I don’t have support except from my son I’ve tried to get help but have to wait months,its4 months tomorrow that my husband passed away ! The pain and heartache is unbearable! I don’t know what to do with myself I’m so angry with everything why is life so cruel? I know one day things will be better but that seems so far off , sorry for having a moan I need to let it out!
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Hi Ab12 sorry you have lost your husband .Lung cancer took my partner 3 years ago .Its so cruel I know and there are some nice people on here to always listen and know the pain of grief and such early days for you .My family live abroad so its harder with no support near by .My friends have been good but bank holidays they usually spend time with their family so very lonley time I know please message me anytime and other people will be along to support you .xx
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Hi thanks for your message,sorry for your loss it’s a horrible journey seeing them like that and feeling so helpless ! Let’s hope tomorrow is a better day! 
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It is .At first if I had no one to talk to I used to ring macmillans help line they were good but ive rang silver line too .I googled berevment groups in my area and councilling .There is usually a waiting list but for me it was worth the wait helped me a lot .I remember in the early days crying in super markets and running out its normal .It does with time get easier just take one day at a time dont look to the future be kind to yourself .
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It’s really hard in the first few months. I waited 5 months for counselling but it was worth the wait. It helped me a lot , are there any bereavement cafe near where you live . Also there are helplines you can ring . It’s 7 months since I lost my husband suddenly from a heart attack. Weekends are the hardest to deal with. This one is even longer being a bank holiday. I am still taking it day at a time and don’t think too far into the future. Look after yourself
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Hi there is no bereavement cafe nor me and all the counselling is a couple of bus rides and a long waiting list! I don’t drive so harder for me to get to online counselling have stopped because they have to many to deal with it’s like hitting a wall I’m trying to get help and getting nowhere!
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I’ve seen silver line and was thinking of giving them a go macmillan wasn’t any good when my husband was ill never saw them when he left the hospital! So a bit annoyed with at the moment! Will keep looking, have a nice weekend
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I don’t drive either, so I know it can be hard getting to places. It had cruise bereavement counselling over the phone . They also have a support helpline which you can ring .
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Hi sherbet 10 I tried cruse but couldn’t get through their online has closed due to ,to many people needing help , just called macmillan and was told thy are not a bereavement line ! Another brick wall!
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I know it can be hard trying to find bereavement counselling. You could try your gp see if they know anywhere that might know of bereavement counselling. Also local church sometimes run bereavement cafes . I am really surprised about cruise being shut .
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Just a thought is there any hospices near where you live they sometimes run a bereavement support groups.
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Yes try your local churches they did them near me Macmillen have a online community to join for bereaved people but it’s the same as sue ryder .Try silver line or even samaritans may have some information .
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Hi, I really get what you’ve typed. Some days are just worse than others. Sometimes I get up in the morning feeling flat but within half an hour I’m on a total downer. Today was a bad one but I sat in the garden for a short while and my mood lifted a bit. I’m 7 months now after my partner’s death. I wish I could tell you it will get easier but everyone is different. I haven’t tried counselling yet as I thought it wasn’t for me but I might reconsider. You do what .makes you feel better, lean on people, tell them how you feel. Four months is still very early on grief.
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Thanks Norma1 I wish I had people to lean on but I haven’t ! It’s a roller coaster of emotions that are hard to describe to anyone that hasn’t been through it at least on here we understand how each other feels! I hope tomorrow is a better day for all of us
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Dear ABi2
I’m sorry you have joined us here, sorry for your loss. I’ve just been reading the posts here and would just like to agree with Sherbet, speak to your GP. They should be able to refer you to a social subscriber who should know everything available in your area As others have said churches often run bereavement groups, the one I go to is at a church. It wasn’t easy going in the first time but I was made very welcome. They also have a councillor there you can speak to privately if you need too.
I don’t drive either but I can’t bear the thought of not being able to go where I need to. I downloaded the Uber app, it’s been very useful. To keep costs down I try to use them off-peak.
Keep posting here. It’s like a bereavement group that never closes and you don’t even have to comb your hair to go.
Take care, Helen x
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Hi Helen i will think about going to the go it’s just getting an appointment our practice isn’t a good one! Will try the church! It’s just every time you try to get help and don’t get anywhere I feel what’s the point on a good day I will try !
Thanks ABI
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ABI I don’t think you need an appointment, please explain your position to receptionist and ask for a referral. Don’t give up and you can always chat here whenever you need too x
I lost my partner 3 months ago, suddenly to a cardiac arrest. It’s been heartbreaking, my anxiety is really bad. I don’t drive either, I can’t get on a bus on my own, it’s very isolating I understand you. I have nothing nearby to walk to and all my friends have long since moved away. That’s why I find comfort with this forum. It just helps I hope it helps you too. The people on here are really supportive, keep posting. Sending you hugs 
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Hi log. Sorry for your loss I lost my husband in January such a terrible time we are going through I don’t have many places to go on my own and have no real friends so I’m so lonely! I see my son once a week he’s been so good calls me every night when he gets home from work but you need other people to and they don’t bother to think how you feel! Just trying to get on with life the best I can it’s still very early days but keep strong I’m always up for a chat I’m glad I found this forum it helps!
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Hi ABi2, I find the loneliness is crushing as I go days without speaking to anyone and even when I do I don’t open up about how I feel. I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t come on this site. I try to stay positive but sometimes it is very difficult. All the rain we have had this week doesn’t help. At lest the sun invites you out.
Wishing you all the best
Tom
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