MAX74,
I am glad you are still here, IF you are okay with still being here. I really don’t want to be here, but as I have said before, I am here until whoever is in charge decides I am done. I don’t know when my treatments will start, and really I don’t know whether it has progressed too far to treat. I have a PET scan scheduled for 2 weeks from tomorrow and that might determine what the Oncologist decides to do. Take care, John
Hey John, I am sorry to hear about your news… If losing your loving wife wasn’t a kick in the teeth enough you go and get cancer, hopefully it’s curable.
I suppose some people after losing their loved ones hope to follow, well should you be a believer that there is a afterlife and you see them again.
Hopefully though you’re not ready to follow and can find some kind of life after losing your wife.
Just you being on here from time to time checking up on people and offering stories and advice certainly helps others, so you do make a positive difference if only a little in people’s lives.
You take care my friend and I wish you all the best in your tests and going forward.
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Lostinlimbo,
I do believe that one day I will be reunited with my loving wife and that is about the only thing that has kept me going. I thank you for your comments and wishes. As I have said, I am here until I am not and until then IF I can help anyone I will try. take care, John
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Hey John I was just wondering how your scan went, hopefully it wasn’t more bad news for you as I’m pretty sure you deserve a break. Hope you’re okay my friend.
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Lostinlimbo,
Thank you for your concern. The scan shows that surgery is not an option, today was my first Radiation treatment and tomorrow is supposed to be my first chemotherapy. So far I am not feeling real good after the Radiation, I feel nauseous, even though they gave me something. I took a different pill, hopefully it will help. I am having issues with the feeding tube as well. I am just so tired of all of this, I need it to end. Take care, John
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Sorry to hear that John, certainly sounds like you’re going through the mill at the moment. I knew someone who went through the same kind of ordeal he became so weak and frail a shadow of his former self. Constantly feeling sick and sleeping… None of us actually thought he would get through but he did and is 100% himself again.
Obviously that’s not always the case.
I really do wish you well on your journey hopefully beating it and trying to live a life again.
Your wife is waiting for you but I’m sure you still got things to be doing before that day comes.
Be strong John and all the best.
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Hello Max,
I am so sorry to hear your story. Your experience is so sad. Echoed by many on this site. Everyone’s grief is personal, but many themes seem to run through peoples replies on this site. I have no magical words of wisdom. Just a shared understanding of your pain.
I too am struggling to carry on. I cannot move forward. Like you I can just about manage a coffee in a local cafe. I hope you are able to reach out to your children for support. Have you confided in them how you feel?
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