It’s been over a year since I lost my mum.I am so lost without her.I don’t know how to live without her.Last year was so hard but this year just feels so much harder.One minute she was here and the next she was gone.I am not the same person I was.I get so angry it just feels so unfair that shes not here anymore.She was my main support.Theres so many things she use to help me with.I just feel like time has stood still since she went.
After a year you are meant to move on and start living again but I just feel stuck.I hate my life at the moment and I feel like things are never going to get better.I feel so alone.
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I know how you feel, send lots of love x
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Thank you x
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I know how to feel. I lost both parents in 2020. It still hurts so much. I thought the pain would have waned a bit but it just seems to be getting worse. I think of them both everyday. I visit places where they used to go. It sounds stupid but I feel I might see them when I visit the places. I even hope the phone will ring and I’ll hear their voices again. I have a brother and sister but I’m live alone. I think being alone makes it so much harder to cope.
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I did that a lot when I lost Mum 8 months ago, and now Dad is in palliative care I plead with the universe to make him better. I know it’s nonsense but it’s part of grieving- the bargaining stage.
Hurts like hell.
One thing that helped me was having photos of them all over the place, as it helps the brain to realise they have gone. It still sucks, but I have a smile in between the buckets of tears.
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Im sorry for your loss.I live alone and I use to be happy living alone but since my mum died.I just find it really lonely.I hate being at home now.I use to just phone my mum if I felt lonely and if i just needed a chat but now that shes gone it is really hard.Its been so long since I actually heard her voice it’s painful.When I go down to my dad’s I just think of her just coming through the door and asking me how I am and asking if I want a cup of tea like she use to.Now there’s just silence.I ask for signs from her just to feel some comfort but nothing really happens.She believed that when your gone your gone.Theres nothing after.
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feeling the same. sometimes so bad I do not want to be here … I hang on.
it is hard. good parents are the anchor in our lives.
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Thank you.Im sorry for your loss.
Most of the time I don’t want to be here anymore.Life is so hard without her.Its really hard to hang on.My mum was the rock of the family.
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So sorry we are all grieving. My stepdad passed today, I’m still in shock. I’m crying and trying to get my head round it.
I lost my Mum 8 months ago, I can hardly believe I’m going through it again.
I got through that and I’ll get through this but it’s horrible, just horrible.
We’re going to get there, we will, eventually.
Sending hugs 
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So sorry to hear about your Mum and Stepdad.
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Starheart im so sorry about how you feel if it’s any consolation I feel exactly the same as you loosing my mum two years ago . I have a partner yet still feel so lonely and like you my mum was always at the end of the phone . I too had my own place but stayed with her all the time . Now the family home is sold my husband and I have moved away from London to Hampshire and I just can’t motivate myself to even go out and have no friends . I try not to overthink on that as I had no friends in London really but I guess change has hit me hard . I know no one will knock on my door and I dread how I’ve become . Voluntary work was a letdown as basically remote working . I’m a young early retired person ( gave up my job to look after mum in London as did my sister ) I feel life will never be happy for me and though I have a supportive husband he sees it as placing all my love into my mum so feels hurt so I can’t even dwell on my loss even though whether right or wrong I lived with her most of my 50 odd years and I am grateful for that as people loose their parents younger than me. I’m sure your much younger but I do feel for you and you summed up my thoughts today Big hugs David xx
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Hi Snowpatrol
Have you thought about counselling? I ring the CRUSE helpline at times and will be having counselling soon. I also had private therapy when Mum died.
I’m a bit raw as my stepdad just passed but I know for me, therapy will help me to heal, it has with Mum.
It’s such an effort to carry on, but it’s the only way. I forced myself to do supply teaching and it lifted me too, took my mind off the grief.
Sending hugs
Oh my, your comment jut resonated with me so much because after losing my Dad recently I read something yesterday that summed it up - he was “the anchor to my identity”! xxx
Absolutely this all resonated with me. My daddy was my anchor, my rock, and my biggest fan. I lost him June 5th 2022. I lost my momma June 29th 2021. She was my comfort blanket so to speak, I always called her when I needed comfort. When I had a problem that needed fixing I called dad. They were divorced for 40 years, but I was close to them both. Mom was 71 and dad was 74. I have a wonderful husband, but no kids. So I totally get it. My heart is broken 
. My heart is also broken for all of you. Take care of yourselves during this horrible time. Hugs to you all!
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Hi I no how you fell I lost my parents very close together it been six months and I still find it hard I put the face on with everyone because I don’t no what else to do I think about them every day and miss them I no my parents wouldn’t want me to fell this way but I can’t help it I try and keep myself busy to take my mind off of it people say it’s gets easy but I don’t no just look after yourself
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Snowwhite21 you are absolutely right. There is no easy way to go through this. One foot in front of the other and keep going. I look forward to happier times, because like you and many of us on here, our parents would want us to be happy, and to live our best life!
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Just keep talking
Snowwhite21 I apologize did you mean keep talking to others or something else?
know the feeling … that is a major loss so recent so close together.
I am so sorry. you must be in deep mourning.
I cannot stand that I cannot go home. my mind freaks out. it does not get that they are not there … it messes me up, badly.
Absolutely I know how you feel berit! Going to my dad’s house, the house I grew up in is so hard. I have so many memories and I picture him being there. Feels so empty without him. My Stepmom is there, but it isn’t the same without my dad. I know we are all in terrible pain …I am glad we can all come on here and help each other.