Hello everybody
i have never used online conversations before and I am new to grief. My dear husband of 27 happy years died 12 days ago. I think I am still shocked and very lonely.
I am not sure if I can cope with my pain at all.
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@dearJohn i am so sorry for your loss. It’s such early days for you , it’s understandable how you’re feeling.
We’re all part of on this dreadful club that is grief , we’re all at different stages which makes the community a wonderful support.
Take care of yourself, try to drink , eat a little and often, rest when you can and just get through each minute, hour of these next days.
Keep reading posts here , it can be a tremendous support.
Di you have friends and/or family who can support you at the moment ?
Sending you love
Oh thank you for your kind words, tears…
My son is in the USA with his family. we were estranged , now his door opened a little, first talk to my Grandson since he was a toddler! It warms my heart.
No family for me here, only one stepson tried to reach out, everybody disappeared. It fells like I died not John.
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It is strange but comforting that I am not alone in this cold night!
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It is so so hard to understand this grief. I have never felt anything as awful as this. Total hearbreak and loss. I am at 11 weeks. I wouldn’t manage without this group.
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Thank you for sharing, how is your sleep?
My sleep pattern is all over the place. When I relax, my mind starts to dwell on all the negative things. It is so difficult to find peace of mind. Nothing feels the same
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Me too. The last few months were exhausting for me , 3 hospital admissions, moving furniture at home to accommodate hospital bed , lot of care work , improvement and hope and than a sudden stop. now I have all time God made, very tired but I can’t sleep
I keep asking myself If that is all life could offer? Loss and suffering? I tried to remember happy moments of my life but my brain is empty, everything is filled with pain.
Do you have family with you or do you live alone?
I don’t understand how a day is just gone. I had a very busy household. I was a foster carer. Now there is me and 4 dogs. Nearly 62 and for the first time, I live alone.
I am 62 too . dogs are my favourite creatures , only one problem with them - they have short lives. I am alone in the big house . We had it for 26 years I feel like I am a stranger in it now.
Are you a lady? If you don’t mind me asking
Foster caring sounds wonderful.
Yes I am female. I also live in an old 6 bedroom house. I loved it, now loath it.
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Oh dear, I understand . Mt house is too big for me too I doubt if I will ever have enough strength and courage to move .
I am going to make a cup of tea, pity I can’t ask you to join me now.
62 is a difficult age for a widow, we are not young and we are not old. If we shall live another 20 years Alone?
Everything is so up and down. I think I want to move, then I don’t. I actually don’t now what I want. I do, it’s the life I had, sadly that isn’t going to happen. What area do you live?
Portsmouth Southsea and you?
I am in South Wales
. I love Wales. Beautiful countryside for your dogs to play))