Yea getting is OK but it’s the coming back I have my daughter living with me which helps with the loneliness but I just want the love of my life back
I do understand do want to chat
My partner passed 26 weeks ago. I was with him for 21 years. I have poor health and struggle with pain. I looked after him. Just 1 hug would make everything ok. Are you going to counciling?
So glad you have your daughter to give you support and for you to support her. I have no family close by and it’s the silly little chats that we use to have I miss the most. Just having someone here would be so reassuring.
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Cat6
Know exactly what you mean a hug 
or a gentle stroke of the cheek or that morning arm around you before you start the day would be worth a million £ 
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Another week completed since losing the love of my life. I carry on with everyday things but the emptiness is unbearable. I feel guilty when I’m getting on with life But what else can we do. I speak to him daily and desperately miss our conversation. I hope you are all coping well and send best wishes
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Well done.
You are trying every day. Don’t feel guilty you are trying to survive!
Sending big hugs
Six weeks today since losing my adorable husband and soulmate. To the outside world I’m getting on with life. I still start crying at times for no apparent reason the loss is unbearable.
All I can see going forward is emptiness. He was in denial for so long and didn’t talk about his diagnosis. I went along with this as it was his coping mechanism. I truly believe he convinced himself he would beat the cancer prognosis. His deterioration was rapid and cruel and its left me wishing so much we had those conversations around our feelings and wishes.
I know he truly loved me as much as I loved him but feel like I wasted those last weeks becoming his carer rather than his lover and best friend.
People always say time heals I’m not sure it does as it seems harder now than before. I can’t bear the thought of life without him and the future seems daunting and empty.. I’m just thankful that I had 41 loving years with a truly wonderful gentleman -many people are not that lucky in their lifetime.
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Yea I feel the same that wasted the 2 weeks she had left becoming Jackie’s carer rather than cuddling her holding her hand and giving her lots of kisses the last close thing I did with her was to massage her feet for her which she used to love over the years the last week of her life was bad and painful for her it was so hard to watch
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It is horrifying to watch.
To see them loose the twinkle in their eyes which I am sure was stunning with Jackie.
She seems like a warm caring person
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I find it esp. hard when you’re going through something difficult and you don’t have your companion to ease things up for you. My spouse was a buffer from life’s harsh realities and everyday annoyances.
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It’s 7 weeks and I wouldn’t say things are better but having to learn a new way of life without my soulmate. He is always in my heart and mind and in every tear I shed.
A good friend invited me for coffee this morning and i am trying to say yes to invites even though it’s difficult without him. Went to local garden centre was fine til got to Xmas decorations. He so loved Xmas lights and decorations and then a favourite elvis song came over the store loudspeaker. That was enough to set the tears flowing.
Dreading the thought of Xmas build up everyones making plans with family when I have lost my only family and feeling so alone. Still talk to him daily which some people have said is weird.
Wishing you all well and keep communicating via the forum as it truly helps to keep in contact with people going through this rollercoaster journey.
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it’s not weird talking to him everyday. I think it’s therapeutic. I do it, too, and prob. will the rest of my days. You are so early in your grief that it’s so understandable.
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After 41 years waking up with the love of your life beside you when you lose them life feels so empty. No more chit chat on what the day will bring. Just stillness and an empty feeling 
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Know how you feel…so sorry for your loss. Sending hugs 
Feeling with you. The bed’s too big without
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I am so sorry you know how that feels!
This morning I posted about the loneliness on waking and an empty bed.
This evening is just as bad coming home to an empty quiet house without his smile and a hug to welcome me home.
Great love 
causes great grief:cry:
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Hi , I’m so sorry for your loss. I too lost my soul mate , best friend and husband in August . It was such a shock, he was only 54 and healthy . I get what you mean about people . I was inundated with visitors , people offering to help , and after around a month . Zilch. I too feel so lonely , 
. Though my two youngest children 19, and 23 are at home . It doesn’t help fill the void . I’m also disabled and my husband did so much for us all. I’m struggling with the house and life . I wake up and think he’s beside me or down the stairs . Then reality hits and I just cry. I talk to him all day . I shout at him too for leaving me , although I know he didn’t want to . It just so horrible isn’t it ? I hate that people offer to help, or visit but don’t follow through . Sending you love . I’m here if you want to talk . Only joined this site myself .
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I totally agree the Whole situation is horrible. The void left by our loved ones is like a black hole that can’t be filled.
I had to do some shopping today but it brought back such memories of the happy wonderful everyday moments my husband and I shared. Then coming home to an empty house apart from the cats - The tears started to flow I’m so angry that he was taken from me. Sad that I can’t see any joy in life , lonely that I have no one to share life with as we didn’t have family. We were happy and content just the two of us
I’m only 7 weeks into this nightmare. I Really don’t know how to get out of this depression.
I don’t think time will heal but need to learn to live with this but how??
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