Saw The Book of Mormon a few years ago. Fabulous musical . Lots of ‘adult’ stuff in it but it’s great fun x
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The Nutcracker was the last thing I saw before Mum passed . It’s a beautiful ballet . As I said theatre is main interest and I’m determined to keep it going x
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I saw the recent production at Sadlers Wells in September . Superb show x
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Just very comforting as Tchaikovsky was my mum’s favourite composer and loved the Nutcracker ballet. We saw an amateur version once in out local theatre and it was awful….was like watching Mavis Cruet on stage (hope you remember from Willo the Wisp lol) x
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Yes I remember 
. My first ballet was another Tchaikovsky - The Sleeping Beauty x
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Great to be back at the Royal Opera House. Enjoyed Nabucco. The staging wasn’t great although improved after the interval but the singing was great especially the famous Chorus Of The Hebrew Slaves. Seeing shows is saving my sanity . I talk to Mums ashes when I come home and tell her all about it.
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So pleased that you went today and enjoyed it Neil 
and I often find after the interval is better …almost like they have got in to a bit more lol x
Hoping telling your mum all about was of comfort to you.
Wishing you a good evening,
Suzanne x
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Ah that’s great news that you have old hobbies you have started again 
the photography sounds great too and if your Mum was your biggest fan, how about taking some photographs of what you think she might like?
Do you enjoy walking? cycling? a nice walk or cycle always helps, must be the fresh air!
Ps. what’s a gym? 
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That’s a great idea about taking the photos that I know she would have liked and I may then use them on on Instagram page in her memory or something…thank you for the idea.
I like to walk but cycling and me don’t mix as I have very little coordination lol x
As for the gym…well I went to the induction but it was so busy i felt a bit out of place but have a class booked for Friday so we’ll see
Hope you are doing fine just now,
Suzanne x
@Suzanne30 no problem, you’re welcome
Haha is the cycling a stabilisers job then? oooo nice hopefully that will help you, something new to concentrate on!
I’m good thanks for asking, hope you are too
Lee x
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Sorry for your loss Tina it’s a difficult time for you and I can understand how you feel as l lost my mother in March 2019 and we were very close to each other! She was my whole world and we did everything together! I still miss her very much and I am always looking at her photos which are of great comfort to me! Time is a great healer and it does get better with time but your mum will always be in your heart. I had bereavement support from a bereavement councillor which was very helpful for me and helpful for me to move on with my life which my mother would want me to do. Be strong and you will get through this difficult time.
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Thanks for replying deb24. I’m sorry you have had cause to be on the forum. Thankyou also for your positivity. I’m hoping the counseling I have applied for helps. Kindest regards.
Neil and Suzanne, I just posted some pics of my garden in TOTALLY ALONE which has inspired me to get out there today, even if it’s just for a cuppa and to look at the garden. Never thought I would be able to enjoy the garden again because it was what I was doing when mam was told she had cancer and left us in a week. I feel so guilty that I was painting and putting up trellises when I could have spent my time with mam. She didn’t see my garden during covid because I was doing the patio and she couldn’t have managed with her walker. I feel so guilty that I could have spent that time with her. But I realise now that I will get out there and make a start soon. Much love xxx
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Hello, I am alone in the house after losing Mum recently during this year.
In the middle of October 2025 she had a fall in the kitchen and had a hip operation. That went well but she became very ill straight after that and spent more time on the ward than usual. She then spent some time in a specialised palliative care unit and a short at a nursing home. I was praying and hoping she could get better and recover and returned home. She was missing home but she never came back. We had the funeral in April this year. The illness in hospital came on suddenly, my light went out. they said there was a cancer present. It has been hugely painful, stressful and traumatic. I came home from university and always lived with her ever since. We had a shared life, supported each and benefitted from each other’s company. She had just turned 79 when she was admitted. We spent many weeks visiting her and seeing her so ill. It is stressful been here alone without her and all her things are put away in her bedroom. It is too much for to cope with really. I make myself go out everyday to volunteer or sometimes to the Maggie’s Centre to see a counsellor. I feel so heavy and stressed, feeling the separation intensely now. The house does not feel the same and I don’t feel as safe or as whole as I used to and I enjoy things less. I just feel so pained by what had happened it was all so sudden. My brother and my Dad are good with practical things but not so good with emotional support. It is the worst nightmare I am going through, I never thought something like this could happen to the person closest to me at this time. I have just turned 50 and I am now without her. I am single and don’t have a family of my own.
I feel so lonely and scared
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Hello Laura.
So sorry to read about your Mum’s sad passing and that you had to find this forum.
I lost my Mum over four years ago and my was shattered as I was her carer having lost my Dad several years before ( I was originally his carer for many years).
I am around the same age as you are and had those exact same feelings as you have described. It’s the loneliness and no sense of purpose I found most difficult . I found this forum and made many friends on here. I don’t post as much now as , with time, the pain of grief has gradually lifted - its still there lurking but am learning to live with it.
I have no other close family and no children of my own so can totally relate to what you are going through.
Hopefully you will get other members on this forum that will see your post and will be there for you too. It does take a few days sometimes for your post to get seen.
I always try and post positive stuff with photos of my cultural adventures to keep my friends on here feeling positive but on difficult anniversary dates like loved ones birthdays we are here for each other.
For example this coming Friday it is my late Dads birthday so how I cope with that I arrange a theatre trip/ art gallery visit to keep my mind positive. Sometimes it is hard though.
Hope to speak to you again and believe me, it may not feel like it now, but you will feel it does get easier. One day ( or even one hour at a time), there is no time limit for grief.
Sending hugs and best wishes Laura xx
I have very dark days. I return to the house and she is not there and her things are in her room. I go out most days but I feel so cold and heavy inside. My feeling of inner security has gone.
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Hi Laura
I am very sorry about the loss you are going through. I too lost my lovely mum, on the 1st May 2025. I lived with mum my whole life. She had glioblastoma brain tumour which was only diagnosed during the last 6 months of mum’s life. It was devastating to see her demise. Along side Rennie Grove palliative care nurses I was mums carer for that time too.
She too only got to 79 years by one month. But the last 5 of those 6 months she was bed bound and could not swallow by the end. She became mute and just slept for 23 plus hours a day.
My world came to an end and it’s just by being on here and sharing with kind people like you have shown and others who have also lost their lovely mums that I have found it a great solace.
I wish I could bring all our mums back. But now we must try to help each other here with our sadness and loss.
I am hoping you will keep posting on this platform I think very much it may help you.
I too am all alone without mum.
Sending you virtual hugs. Wuu
Hello Laura, There are a few of us on here who also lived with their Mums. I am 53 and lived with my Mum my whole life. I lost my Dad when I was 20. My Mum had a fall in Octobee, broke her hip, got through surgery and was medically fit for discharge. I was tidying up our home, getting it ready to bring her home at 12 and got the call I never ever wanted. Mum died of a cardiac arrest. Writing it now brings back that awful moment and the tears flow. Most of the time I try not to think - my way of coping. Then I get a trigger and I release the tears when I can manage. Your Mum’s condition was a bit different, but like you, my Mum never came home and I never got to say goodbye. Know that you are not alone. There are a few of us also on another thread, sharing the love we had for our Mums. I try to take each day at a time and live the best life that I can as Mum wanted me to be happy. I am.sure that your Mum would want the same for you.